'She Doesn't Get It' - A Josh Hutcherson Fanfic.

part twelve.

Part 12, Thalia's POV:

My head jerked back and Saw alexander at the door. He noticed quickly and turned away as I did. I gave Jennifer an uneasy look and she noticed and came over.

"I remember what happened at the party, will there be some sort of tension?" She hears the horridness in my voice and calms me down.

"No, nothing will happen. Alex is Alex and won't hurt Josh like that. Josh won't pay mind to it either... hopefully." She whispered the last part as I knew how short-tempered Josh really is.

She walks back to her seat and I sit next to Amandla & Isabelle. Josh is across the table seated next to Woody & Liam. I hear the publicists assign interviews to take part in and I feel someone's eyes burning through my body. I turn to the direction I feel it's coming from and Alex's eyes are now looking into mine. We stare at each other for what feels like eternity but in reality was 5 seconds when Amandla nudged me. I wait a few minutes and turn to his direction. He mouths something to me but I can't pick it up the first time.

"Wanna go outside?" I finally recover what he's been trying to say.

"Sure." I mouth back. I feel my stomach twirl and automatically know this isn't a good idea.

I walk out the door excusing myself, waiting in the hallway. I wanna give this guy a piece of my mind. 

"What was all that about at the party?" I ask quite loudly.

"Shhh! They're gonna hear you." He covered my mouth with his hand. "I was drunk, you were drunk and that's what happened. Shit happens, gosh." He lets go of my mouth and takes a step forward.

"What are you doing?" I feel his body get closer and I don't feel comfortable.

"I felt something more in that kiss. Didn't you?"

"Um.." I trail off.

"I shouldn't love you but I want to, Thalia. I, I can't stop thinking about you."

Is he telling me that he likes me. I stand there like a tree, completely still taking in the rough winds of a hard breezy day.

"I tried my best to let go of you but I don't want to."

"Alex, I'm... I'm sorry but I love Josh and I think- no, I know that was a mistake. I was single at the time and wasn't thinking."

Alex shrugs it off and paces back and forth and I just stare at him. 

"We can always be friends. Though you'll feel something more for me, I won't let that ruin our friendship. We don't know each other as much as I know Josh anyway."

"I guess. I'd rather have you in my life as a friend then not in at all."

I sigh and lean against the wall. Alex leans with one arm against the wall and comes closer and closer to my lips. I feel uneasy but can't help it that I lean in forward too. Our lips touch and I feel nothing like I do with Josh.

Our lips part and he starts to sigh heavily.

"I wanted you from the start, ya know."

"What?"

"I saw you driving into LA and I'm sure you noticed a big black car stopping wherever you did."

"That was you?"

"Yup. I saw you walk out of your car and thought you were perfect. I kept telling my driver, Mike, that 'I'm gonna make her mine. Not with what's on my check but with what's in my heart.' and he kept saying that I should hurry up and talk to you in a store but chickened out. You were the first girl to make me weak as bad as you did, just by looking at you."

I take it all in and put the puzzle pieces together. 

"Why didn't you?"

"I met up with the cast as Josh was supposed to the same day. He broke up with Rachel and said he needed a gift for his mom. We waited and waited but he never came and now we know why."

Why didn't I see this coming? What's Josh gonna think? Does he have to know? All these thoughts race in my mind.

"....And the party?" I asked.

"That was my chance. I took it and the way you were provocatively dancing made me linger for your touch."

"Alex, I can't. I'm sorry but I love Josh. W-What am I gonna do if the media finds out? They have pictures and will soon figure it out but it's too soon, Josh and I hadn't even been together for two weeks and this could release soon."

"As deep as I need you you don't want me. Say it's true, say that you don't love me and we'll settle for friends."

I pause. You don't love him. What does he mean by settle? Like it's the last choice? I think. 

"I don't love you. Can we start over? Please?" 

"Fine. But know that I'll never ask for anyone but you."

He looks into my eyes and I see the ice in his eyes, the sadness that appears, every emotion he's feeling I feel too. I feel alone. 

"The only way I can love you, even as a friend, is if you let me." I quietly say as my voice cracks for causing him this pain.

"Deal. We're friends." He replies coldly and walks into the room with the cast again. I realized it's been 10 minutes since we left and probably pouring the questions to him and wondering where I could be. I suck it up and walk back inside as if nothing happened. 

"What happened out there?" Woody asks me and everyone agrees.

"Bombarded by fans of you guys when I went out for a redbull." I say, smiling to reassure everyone.

"Okay." Everyone says in different tones and returns back to the last minute of the meeting. Alex doesn't look at me for the last minute and I felt bad.

I walk to Josh and he tries to hug me and kiss me but I don't allow it because of the cast around but really because of the kiss with Alex was eating me up. I leaned in too, so I was as guilty as Alex.

We go out to the car after saying goodbye to everyone up to meet fans at a theater. I stay behind and wander around shops with my money in my pocket. I walk freely around, window shopping, thinking of the previous events which took place no less than 25 minutes ago.

I walk into a store and feel eyes peering at me. I see people whispering and I hear a few girls talking very loud for a whisper. 

"Isn't that Josh Hutcherson's girlfriend?" 

"Yes, oh my gosh she's so lucky." The second one replies. I see the third one take out her phone and call someone else.

15 minutes later, I walk out the store with a top and a cardigan and I see a bunch of grown men crowding around me. I see flashing and quickly walk past not trying to pay attention but I soon realize it's paparazzi and fast walk back to our car but I feel someone grab my arm forcefully.