'She Doesn't Get It' - A Josh Hutcherson Fanfic.

part seventeen.

Part 17, Josh's POV:

I  don't hear anything from her until we get home. She's cold, quiet, and lost. I can't do anything which makes everything worse. I see her walk out to the balcony where I showed her the view when she first came over. I don't want to bother and let her have time alone, to think as I need to do as well.

Did I do something? Should I have made sure she was on it? I ruined her, I can't live with that. I think. How are we gonna recover? 

My shoulders feel as if I have the whole world is on it. I look out to the balcony and see her in the same position. I pull out a blanket and pull a seat next to her and cover us both since it's freezing.

"It wasn't your fault." Thalia speaks so quiet and innocent, yet firm.

"It wasn't yours either." I tell her. She lets out a sigh and I pull a few strands of hair from her face and the light is hitting her so perfectly.

"It was our baby. My first and you know," Tears fall ever so gently and land on our entwined hands. "I'm so afraid. Afraid that since I lost your baby, I'd lose you too." She looks at me and I cup her face in my hands.

"Baby, that would never happen." I start crying because I needed to, I hold her in my arms and just rock her to sleep.

I carry her to the bedroom and check my phone which is funny because I forgot I had one. I pick it up and I have texts from friends reassuring me that "everything will be alright" but how do they know? They never lost their baby. I think. 

I check twitter and a trend has been up for days. "#PrayForThalia"

I clicked it and seen a lot of tweets of their thoughts, some were saying that she had a headache and fainted which was "no big deal."

"Thank you all for keeping her in your thoughts. We're back home and she thanks you as well. We both love and appreciate you." I send a tweet.

I crawl in bed with Thalia and drift to sleep.

Thalia's POV:

I wake up to the sound of banging on the door and it's 12:30 PM. I rub my eyes as the events from yesterday hit me like whiplash. I try to to shake it off and walk to the front door, leaving Josh to sleep.

I look out the window and see two cars parked out front and Amandla banging the door with Jen, Alex, Isabelle, Woody, Elizabeth and Levin.

"What are you all doing here?!"

They all tackle me with hugs and Woody opens his mouth,

"We came to see how you are. What happened?" I swallowed and Josh comes out the room half asleep.

"Hey guys, what's up?" He says groggily.

"We came to see how you guys have been holding up." Jen states.

"Nobody told us anything!" Amandla says.

"I'm sorry guys. Come in!" I say and hug each one.

Alex walks in last and whispers into my ear.

"I'm glad you're ok." He holds me longer and we release to everyone else talking to Josh. 

I pull Josh aside and surface how we're gonna tell him.

"How are we gonna tell them that we had a miscarriage? Let alone have sex?" I whisper.

"I don't know. I trust them with my life so we should."

I think of Alex. How am I gonna say this. Hey Alex, I had sex with Josh a day after you said you loved me. I lost his baby! Wanna forgive me? I can't say this.

"Just tell them but minus the miscarriage." Josh said. This is gonna lead to trouble.

"Fine. But you say it."

"Fine." Josh let out a sigh and sat them down.

"Guys, we both love you so much and you're like my family, I'm sure like Thalia's too. When she fainted, she didn't have enough body fluids and she got hit with a camera, she didn't wake up for a week because she ugh....."

"Spit it out!" Elizabeth demanded.

"I had a miscarriage." I blurt it out, I can't keep something like this from them. They've been nothing but good to me.

Their faces explain what they can't and I leave the room and just cry. I thought I could be strong but it's killing me. Help me. I slide down the door, holding my knees to my chest.

They're gonna look at me different. I know they are. How am I gonna live with this? I think to myself and hear a soft knock at the door.

"It's me, Alex. Let me in, please?" Sounds like he's choking so I let him in and only him while everyone else is comforting Josh as best as they can.

"I'm sorry." I whisper. Alex sits down next to me and pulls me close.

"I'm not mad- I don't think I can ever be mad at you. But why?" Why is he asking me this?

"Why what? Why did I have sex? I know for sure in hell you're not with a smile like yours."

"I may not be a virgin but I thought you'd wait."

"Josh is the only man I'm gonna be with and I am for sure not leaving him. Why are you doing this?" I choke on my last words and tears fall but I still stand up against him.

"I only want the best for you, Thalia. You know this."

That's when he kissed me.

"No! I'm not in love with you. The man that's crying on the couch is the man I lost my virginity to, I gave my all and he sure did too. I can't love you like I love him. I just lost my baby. A baby I didn't know existed."

"Thalia-" I cut him off.

"Just go."

He leaves the room and I hear another knock on the door.

"What?" I say annoyed.

"It's Jennifer." I open the door and fall into her arms.

"I didn't mean to lose this baby."

"I know. But Josh makes it sound like it's his too but it's none of your faults."

"I could've been the best mother I could have been."

"I know you would have. We all do. With the way you take care of us and yourself, we know you would've been the best mom anyone could ever have."

"Thanks Jen." She kisses my forehead and we walk out to see Josh drying his eyes and Woody approaching me.

"It was His decision. You weren't ready, baby girl." Woody whispers in my ear.

"Thank you."

I let go and accept everyone else's hugs and I see Alex waiting for another one. I walk over and hug him as he whispers sorry.

I let go and go with Josh on the couch as we talk about media. 

"You can't let this out. Please. I don't want Josh to feel abandoned."

"We won't." Some say and the others nod.

We say our goodbyes and Josh recommends that we stay in and watch movies.

We spend the rest of the day/night cleaning, cooking, and watching movies while we cuddle.

We're all peaceful and then we can see flashing coming from outside. I get up but Josh wants me to sit down.

"I'm gonna see what happened." I tell Josh.

"Come back here, it's probably the neighbors."

I look out the window and I see a familiar car that hit another car. I gasp as I scream for Josh to call 911 and I try to see who's hit. I see that familiar face which was here a few hours ago. It's Alexander.