'She Doesn't Get It' - A Josh Hutcherson Fanfic.

part twenty-one.

Part 21, Josh's POV:

I went from never being separate from Thalia, with not seeing her in a month and a half. Levin ruined everything for us. In all honestly, I felt nothing for her. Nothing when we kissed, the conversations were empty but I never had sex with her. I haven't had sex with anyone since Thalia. I have seen her on magazines and E! News along with Access Hollywood, TMZ, stuff like that. She's been seen with the rest of the cast, especially Alex. Alexander always gets questioned if they are a couple but he says they're "just best friends." She does get hate for being with Alex and she's gotten skinnier since i've seen her in candids. She hasn't talked to me since that night for the premiere. I really screwed things up for us. 

I've practically been hiding away, losing the day like it doesn't even matter. It shattered our world. The paparazzi rarely follow me which is good but I haven't even talked to the rest of the cast. They prefer Thalia over me? She was my girlfriend. They would've never met her if I never bumped into her. 

Why didn't you tell her? Levin led you on. I think, Thalia could've been my wife and I can see her being the mother of my children. I see her as everything I ever wanted. She never lied to me, she knew everything about me. "I read you like an open book, Josh." I can hear her voice, the one voice that can make me feel like i'm flying but this was a slap in the face. Jennifer and Liam scold me whenever I ask them about Thalia. Especially Liam. "Josh, why don't you ask her?" Josh, why don't you make it better? She's suffering." I replay the remarks Jen and Liam tell me.

I hear the door slam and I can tell that it's Levin.

"Can you stop slamming the fucking door?" I say annoyed.

"Excuse you. This is my house." This pissed me off. It's mine and Thalia's house. Though she isn't living here.

"No. You can leave Levin. You caused enough damage. Stop spending my fucking money too."

"Bye Josh. You won't have another like me." I hear the door slam and wince at the slam.

I remember when Thalia said that in my ear back in Australia. I need to talk to her. I'm tired of sitting around here. I leave the house and make my way to Jennifer's condo hoping she's still rooming with her.

I knock at the door and take deep breaths. What if she hates me? 

"Josh?" I hear a small voice say.

"Amandla?" 

"Where have you been?" She asks.

"With Levin." I say through gritted teeth.

"How are you? Come in!" She welcomes me.

"Good. Where is everyone else?"

"In the back. We're having a barbecue. Go on over." She seems uneasy because nobody invited me. Oh, friends.

I make my way to the back and examine everyone before I make an appearance. Jennifer is sat talking to Liam and his girlfriend, Miley. I see the whole cast whole there. I look for Thalia and she's talking to Isabelle and Jacqueline with a coke in her hand. The sun shines so perfectly. She's in a white strapless sundress and a pair of gray TOMS with a pink cardigan. She's not wearing much makeup.

I cough and everyone looks at me.

"Josh!" Some say ecstatic. Others seem surprised. 

I keep my gaze to Thalia and her eyes are watching me as well. I walk to everyone and we all say hi and they don't even ask about Levin.

 "Hey Josh." Thalia says, quite awkwardly. 

"Hey. How have you been? You look..... different." I reply, stating the truth.