'She Doesn't Get It' - A Josh Hutcherson Fanfic.

part nineteen.

Part 19, Thalia's POV:

I can't quite put it through my head that they'll be doing a movie together. I mean, let's face it, Levin is so beautiful. Perfect body, face, smile. She's got something we girls want. That's when I admitted to myself I was jealous of her. Not because she's working with Joh but because she's someone I would look to for beauty "tips".

Josh walks in, interrupting my train of thought and jumps on the king size bed next to me. 

"What's up, babe? You seem tense." He said.

"Nothing," I turn and give him a reassuring smile. "Just thinking how Alexander has been since last night."

"I'm sure he's fine. Why do you always think about him?" He gets an attitude right away.

"What if i'm not always thinking about him? Calm down, he was the one hit by a drunk driver, not you."

"So?"

I couldn't believe Josh right now. I get off the bed and can barely keep my lips shut from the things I wanna say.

"Really? That's all? Whatever Josh. Go keep secrets with Levin why don't you." I bite my tongue from what I realized what I had just said.

"What?" Josh acts surprised but I can't keep it from him.

" 'We can't tell her yet.' 'But we can't keep it from her forever.' blah, blah, blah. I'm not an idiot and you sure as hell don't talk so quietly. Wanna fill me in on this conversation, babe?" Mocking the word babe.

He's speechless and dumbfounded as I put on a bra and slip on some flip flops, ready to go to the hospital.

"That's what I thought." I walk out the room grabbing an extra spare of keys and grab the Range Rover keys.

"I'm taking the car and going to see Alex. Don't come either."

"Don't go." I can hear how he's so frustrated at the moment.

"Hey baby, at least I'm telling you, right? Or is that making you more upset? Kiss kiss my love." I wink at him and make my way out the door on my way to the hospital.

I was too harsh on him. What happens if he was planning something for both of us? I think and I automatically feel guilty. But I can't let my guard down, can't show anybody, even Josh, that I'm so fragile. I can take care of myself with or without him. Or anyone for that fact.

Ugh, I can't think with the guilt but stubbornness won't let me go back and apologize.

I make it to the hospital and park outside and clean the passenger seat which has a few gum wrappers and empty cans of redbull. I can hear something creeping in the bushes and take that as a sign to go in, despite the fact that it's morning and i'm in front of a hospital.

I slam the door and a grown man is taking pictures of me again.

"Can't you stalk someone who's actually famous?" I say annoyed.

"Sorry, sweetheart. You're a piece of Hollywood love now."

Oh great. I think. I'm a piece of their Hollywood game show of love now? I don't want to but I won't let that stop me from being with Josh.

I take a deep breath and walk into room 205. He's sleeping which is good since I need to find my place. Should I check gossip sites? I would only see the hate. I can catch up on what they're thinking and releasing. No, I argue with myself, it could possibly make things worse.

I couldn't decide right away but I decided not to. Not right now anyway. I do, however, watch Alex sleep. So peacefully, like a baby you can't wake up for something important and would feel guilty for doing so later. His lip twitches and I remember those few times his lips locked with mine, the first time when we both leaned in. No, Josh is your boyfriend. You feel sparks when you touch, kiss, just the sight of him makes your heart go a million miles per second. That little annoying freaking voice in my head always knows. Conscious, clear your decisions right now.