I Will Never Love You

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Bella stood facing the double doors of Lucian's bedroom. She had showered and dressed in her most modest clothing. Her throat was still slightly sore from screaming the night before, begging Lucian to come back and take her. Her face heated up again and she shook her head and went over towards the bed.

"You're not a coward, Bella." She whispered to herself. She wasn't, but she was ashamed. What she did to Beta Slade was wrong, regardless of her being in heat or not. And Lucian? She basically- she was- he saw her naked! She begged him to have sex with her! She wanted to have sex with him! She doesn't even know him!

She needed to face this. Staying in this room would only drive her crazy and make her more afraid to face the two men who were no doubt waiting for her downstairs. Doesn't a Beta actually have important duties? How has he managed to stay with her the past week until Lucian comes back from where she assumes he is working?

She stopped her wandering mind that was trying to stall the inevitable. She had to leave this room, heck she wanted to. This was where she had exposed herself to him. That thought alone sent her running from the offending bed. She pushed through the doors, knowing if she stopped now she would stall some more.

Once she was outside the room she felt her breathing become more strained. Why was she so nervous? Yes, she acted incredibly inappropriate, but they would understand, wouldn't they? Before she could talk herself out of it, her stressed mind seemed to attract the attention of her infamous mate.

"Bella." He called from downstairs.

He didn't take advantage of her. Does that mean she has to be nicer to him? No, she doesn't have to do anything, but did she want to? Was he different than what she assumed? Why was she asking herself so many questions?

She slowly made her way towards the kitchen, the other crime scene. Once she poked her head in she breathed out in relief that Beta Slade wasn't there. She hadn't groped Lucian like she had Slade. Plus, it was easier than facing the both of them at once, but she couldn't stop her curiosity from controlling her mouth.

"Where's Beta Slade?" Lucian's eyes seemed to flash with anger at the sound of his name leaving her lips, but he quickly controlled himself. He was sat at the table with a newspaper out in front of him.

"At home with his mate and pups." Oh Goddess he had a family. Bella had groped a man and tried to do other things with him when he had a mate and pups waiting on him back home. How was she even supposed to guess that man had a life? He was always so serious but knowing he had a family probably wouldn't have stopped her either. She felt so ashamed.

The silence in the air was only feeding Bella's nerves. What was Lucian going to do? Would he lock her up again? Would he reject her? Could this terrible event be the way out of this whole situation? Again with all the questions.

Bella shook her head as Lucian eyed her carefully.

"I'm going to be working from home more." He started, but something about that sentence made Bella's stomach flip. Home. Not his home, not her home, their home. Bella blinked for a few seconds before realizing Lucian was still talking, "-no more unforeseen incidents can occur."

Bella's face flushed at the reminder of what she did yesterday. Will she ever forget it? But Bella couldn't help but think there was more behind Lucian staying home.

"What about Beta-"

"He will be attending to his role as Beta. He will no longer watch over you but actually do his job." Lucian seemed rather stiff when it came to the topic of his Beta. The man who Lucian's mate was basically dry humping yesterday.