I really don't hate you. I just want to put that out there.
Like I don't really understand you and I really don't agree with decisions you make sometimes but honestly like I'm not mad at you or holding a grudge or anything.
I'm kinda sad that you don't believe anything I've said. It sucks cause it really took a lot to say stuff like that out loud and my feelings are even more invalid now so I won't make that mistake again. Thanks for teaching me a lot of lessons.
I agree it had to happen and I'm glad it did. And I really don't want to things to go back to how they were but I don't really have to worry about that because they won't.
When we hang out with other people I'm nice to you to avoid awkwardness and because other people shouldn't have to feel like there's a shitstorm between us but I really don't like you. Like I genuinely thought we were on relatively good terms after that convo and I told the story like we ended on good terms and I guess I was kinda off to assume you could handle it that maturely which is my bad but I'm still not mad at you. I'm just not.
I know you think it's not genuine but I honestly don't see the point in letting negative feelings stick around. You're not someone I want to associate myself with and that's that but to a certain extent how long can you really get stuck up on shit like this. It's been what? almost 6 months?
I know you've told plenty of people how I'm a bad person and if i wanted to I could be salty but I don't want that. Literally just leave me alone like it's not that hard.
I know Danil made it sound like I said something bad about you but I didn't. I also know you don't believe that last sentence so there's no point in me saying it but I'm gonna anyway. I think I have no right to push my opinion on other people so when I talk about you I stay factual and add nothing else unless they specifically ask me for an opinionated statement at which point I simply say that I disagree with some of your decisions.
I know my happiness and optimism and empathy and success and mindset annoy you. I'd suggest getting over it because it's not going anywhere. I know you call me ingenuine because you can't wrap your head around someone actually thinking and functioning the way I do. I'd suggest getting over it because I'm not changing. I'm just not. Because I love the way I think and the people I surround myself with and the way I see life.
This is all a jumbled mess of thoughts and if I cared more I'd proof read and organize them in a logical way and form words into coherent sentences and try to sound like less of an asshole but I'm just over it. I'm not gonna change the way you think of me or about anything and that's fine.
Wishing you the best through the next chapter of your life. Glad my character was killed off in the last chapter.
