Ps I didn't know you were so angry and you weren't the bitch I was referring to. And sorry that we haven't spoken a shit ton but it's exhausting trying to explain everything and if I started talking I'd end up crying. And if you think I've made up some of that shit it's you with the trust issues not me. I wasn't aware that we weren't friends but thanks for informing me I guess?
Pps I don't give a shit about the birthday thing. You at least realized the day of and tbh I know that sometimes you have a lot going on and I decided I wasn't going to make a big deal about it, especially because you mentioned over winter break that you had my thing planned so I knew it wasn't like you thought it was in October or anything.
If I had an issue with you I'd at least try to talk to you, not passive aggressively start a fight over Wattpad.
And FYI I haven't lied recently. I've been working really super hard to break that habit and accept that it's okay, it really is to just tell people the truth without anything else and it really really will be okay. I know it's hard to believe but convincing myself of that statement has been really really difficult so sorry if I put you through some shit but it's not like I was sociopathically creating lies to watch people hurt. So sorry that you don't completely have trust and truth because no one has mine and I've been working and working and working to try and get over my unrealistic fear and just be enough.
Sorry you don't think my truths were real. Can't really blame you but I wish you could understand how fucking far back in the corner that places me.
And by the way I'm not fucking perfect. I don't try to act perfect and I'm trying to get over the mindset that not being perfect will let people down. You used to really help me with that even though you didn't know it. Guess not anymore.
Just one last thing,
Thank you. I know you're angry and probably cutting me out and that's okay, I figured it'd happen sometime, but I wanted to Thank you because I really, truly, honestly appreciate the gift of friendship that you've given me in the past and I learned a lot from you even if it wasn't always fluffy. If you don't dismiss any one thing I've said as a lie, make it that because I really mean it.
You can have a nice life too
