Family Ties

I Will Always Love You

Roberta's POV

Today is the day ... the day i would never even imagine would come so soon . The day i have to say good bye to the first man i ever fell in love with, my dad . My number one man , the reason why my first and maiden  last name is Roberta Strawder . My daughters "pop pop" . This whole experience has been hard . My mother is broken . My brother is being strong but i know it only going to be a matter or time before he breaks .  We are making sure that everybody is here . The family limo is on its way . I'm dressed in a black dress with gold decorations . Black gold heels and with gold accessories . My hair is curly . With my black shades i finish up getting lyn ready who has on black and gold dress with ruffles . Black tights and black dress shoes . I left her hair out and put on black headband . She isn't a morning person ... sounds like somebody familiar ? Haha . He called me this morning . Its so good to hear his voice . I had to put the phone to lyn ear in order for her to wake up or else she'll be cranky and right now on this day really isn't the best time . She's now eating with me and my mom . Of course I'm feeding her because as usual she always seem to know how to mess up a good outfit if you let her .

After eating and sitting around the limo arrived . My mom, brother , sapphire, Lyn , some of his siblings, myself got in and arrived to my home church Times Square Church . Everybody gets here and me my brother are debating who was going to go in but my mother held both of our hands as i held lyn in my other arm . When we make it to the bottom of the sanctuary where in a gold casket lays my father in a gold and black tux with his favorite gold and black tie. He looks absolutely handsome as always . For the longest I've always said that if i ever get close to a deceased person i would surely be sick of all the things i don't like funerals and hospitals are on  the top of the list . I take my seat in the front and sit Lyn down who keeps saying "pop "pop" . The rest of the family and friends are all seated now and the service started. 
 
  Its time for me to say my speech my brother barely got his out and surprisingly my mother did well . I give Lyn to my brother and couldn't help how she is vey smart and catches on very fast . She noticed that the mood got sad and she began getting clingy which isn't her because she is a very outspoken person . She'll  talk to the wall if only it spoke back so i know something is wrong. When i gave her to my brother she began to make the face that she makes when she is about to cry which is poking her lip out and her eyes got watery so i picked her up and made my way to the front podium. She hid her face in my neck as i held back tears and prepared for the hardest speech ever:
   Baby girl . . That's the name he always called me unless he was mad or upset but other than that i was always baby girl . Even at 35 years old i was still baby girl .  I understand that today us the last day that i will see my father so i want to share some of our fond memories . Memories of happiness instead of sorrow... one memory that i will cherish was when i brought my first home.  I was 21 years old and decided that i want to buy a house.  My mom thought i would want a nice condo and my dad knew i would want a house . The day i got back from my modeling tour i waited a week  or so until i had my house warming . The day of if it i personally showed him around and out of all the things he could ask when we got downstairs to the basement he asked if i could put a wet bar in it . I said now daddy I'm never home so why would i put a wet bar here . He said because your mother would kill me twice if i put one in my basement of our home.  I laughed way too hard and told him i would think about it.  He said for your old man . That is what he always said when he ask me for something and he knows how stubborn i can be.  So the next year on their anniversary i hosted a dinner at my house and almost dragged dad downstairs . He was confused but once we got to the basement he was soo happy that he poured himself the strongest drink i had . Hahaha then he said thank so a million times.  You really care about your old man don't you.  I simply replied with ... you're the first man i ever fell in love with . 
   Which is so true ... so thank you dad for it all.  My old man . Sleep tight dad . We will always love you ....  oh Lyn says night night too .

                  Two Hours Later ....

After Burial  and me almost wanting to go with him we are now at the house eating . However i don't feel too well so i sat outside for some air and my mom agreed to watch Lyn .
After everybody leaves we decided to make sure my mom was ok . We leave tomorrow to go back home . As i watch Lyn sleep i can't help but to think today has been really hard but i thank god that i made it through ...

Thinking soo hard has made me sleepy so i went to sleep . ...

You are missed dearly dad ....