Family Ties

So Far So Ehh

A year later ...
Roberta's POV
Me: Rilley give your sister back her pencil she needs that !
It's been a crazy breathtaking hell of a year since being here . Malibu has treated us great . Life has somehow pieces itself back together . My children now 5 and 2 are growing faster than it seems . Me well I'm almost 40 years old . I'm mind blown completely . Whereas mike is 42 years old and still dominating charts ,awards, and records especially the one we just finish shooting the video for . It's called You Rock My World . Chris tucker has also became a new friend of ours and was the reason why we had soo many "cuts" because we couldn't keep our composure . The FanMail tour was great . With the exception of a unfortunate lost ...

Flashback begins ...
December 19, 1999
We had just finished our show . Adrenaline running through me as the whole crew were amped backstage it all seem like this is what I needed after the hell I went through these past weeks and with me missing my babies this is what I needed .
Staff: Roberta ?
Me: yeah what's up
Staff: the phone is for you .
Me: ok I'm coming .
I answer the phone and mike is on the other end . As always I'm excited to talk to him and my babies but I talked to him earlier today so maybe lyn got him calling me back hahaha
Me: hello ?
Mike: hey baby
Me: hey honey what's up ?
Mike: nothing much how was the show I tried to catch it but I believe I catched the last bit of it .
Me: it was amazing as usual . The fans give us soo much adrenaline that's it's insane to relax when the time come to go to bed or rest . I love it though . How is my babies ?
Mike: I feel the same way when I'm on stage . They are now sleeping but I had something to tell you are you sitting down ?
Me: no I'm not what's wrong why do I have to sit down ?
Mike: just please sit down .
I sit down and feel in my gut that something bad has happened . Please what is it .
Mike: I don't know how to say this to you but Say'ri passed away a few minutes ago before I called you .
Me: NO NO NO PLEASE NO !!
Mike: I'm sorry love . I'm so very sorry .
Say'ri was a brave little girl I met a few years ago when I went walking . She meant a lot to our family . Her mother had told us that she had AIDS and the doctor didn't know how long she had to live. We found out after the Ryan White case and her mother was scared to tell anybody . A lot of her family didn't know until she was officially hospitalized. Mike called me the day after I left for tour and told me that she was being hospitalized because her T-cells were low . I spoke with her every day and she would wish me a good luck on my show . I would check up on her and she would be full of life with some coughs here and there . I knew that she would have to leave soon but not this soon .

Me: I'll call her mom and make arrangements. My heart !

Me and mike ended our conversation after I cried which got the attention of the crew who gave me soo much love .

Flashback Ends ...

The service was beautiful . Her casket was white pink and see through so you can see her she look like she is sleeping in a Barbie doll box . She had on white and a white flower headband . Everybody wore pink and white because pink was her favorite color . She had on a white dress with flower petals on it . Jesus she look beautiful. Because she was 13 her mom always told her that when she get 13 she would allow her to wear little makeup and she kept her word . With light makeup decorating her face and her brown hair flowing down her shoulders she looked like an angel going home to be the lord . Her obituary is on my vanity table with a locket she had on when she passed with a picture of lyn and her when we was at neverland . Even the obituary had beautiful font for her name Say'ri Renee Morris . Gosh I miss that girl and her beautiful spirit that was just here for a short period to grace people and brighten up their day . Her memory lives in our family . When the tour finally ended I came home to my babies and husband and jumped back into a busy schedule then Janet called me asked me to choreograph and be apart of her upcoming tour next year . Of course I said yes . It been ages since we worked together and I would love to do it again .  So rehearsal started early but I'm so Jammed pack into work and parenting that I can't seem to cram room in for rehearsals . Besides lately I haven't been feeling well but working helps me distract me somewhat . Right now I am wrapping up another photo session . Apparently people were really surprised that after all I've been through I maintained a wonderful shape and figure . I'm surprised myself honestly . In this recent interview I was asked if I wanted another child . Honestly I didn't think about it much lately . Especially after loosing one I haven't really felt like I'm ready to go through all of that again . But my little boy will be three soon and I kinda do have baby's fever but I'm not really sure where mike is with everything although he puts on this he's fine persona but I really want to get in his brain .