Accidentally in Love // z.m

Prologue

"Can you just.. just let me know what's going on in your head?" I pleaded looking up at him once more.

"If only it were that simple." He leaned against the wall, sliding his back down against it and landing effortlessly on the floor. He put his face in his hands, leaning his elbows on his knees and sighed. "If only I could make sense of all the mess inside my head." 

"Try. Please?" My voice trembled slightly, I knew I sounded vulnerable, and that's because I was. But I was so close to finally knowing how he felt about me and if there was any hope. I needed to know, but he stayed silent. "Give me something!" I begged, raising my voice a little. I was getting frustrated now, I was sick and tired of being in the dark, of just not knowing anything and him having all this power over me. His eyes snapped to mine at the sound of my demanding voice and he clenched his jaw. Suddenly he stood up quickly and swiftly walked towards me. He grabbed my face in his large hands and forcefully kissed me, pushing me against the headboard of my bed. Once again I was caught up in his trance. His scent, his force, his entire being engulfed me and all these sudden swift movements of his were catching me off guard. However I gathered myself, whilst his lips were still pressed roughly against mine, and pushed him off. "No, enough!" I stammered, and he stumbled backwards. I moved off the bed myself, and now we were facing each other at either side of my bed. I was shaking my head in anger, mostly at myself for letting him kiss me again. "Zayn this is so fucked up." I said crossing my arms.

"You think I don't know that?" He spat back, he was just as angry and I have no idea why. We were both so thrown, so ruffled by the circumstances; by getting close and having to force ourselves to pull away. I needed to keep my distance now, I couldn't trust myself around him.

"Then why do you keep kissing me!?" I almost yelled, throwing my hands in the air.