Accidentally in Love // z.m

Seventeen

"Do you want to stop somewhere for a coffee on the way? My shout!" India asked politely as she drove us to the spa center. I had been looking forward to this day ever since India gave me the gift because it was my first time getting a massage and spa treatment.

"India seriously you don't have to buy me everything and be super careful with me OK. I'd rather us go back to how we used to be than have you try and make it all up to me and it just be awkward between us." I said as I examined my nails, finally being honest with her about her recent actions.

"I know Saz, I just feel so bad and I don't know how to make it up to you." She sighed, her eyes focused ahead of her.

"You don't have to. I completely understand why you behaved the way you did. We both fucked up OK let's just be normal." I smiled turning to her and watching her smile and nod in agreement.

"Alright well the normal us would still involve coffee runs so I'm stopping at Westfield on the way." She laughed. We picked up a quick cuppa on the way, talking about everything and making up for the past weeks lack of contact, it was finally starting to feel normal again.

"So Zayn got me a fucking piano. Can we talk about this please."

"What!? Aren't piano's like 15 grand or something?" India said, trying to look at me and the road at the same time as she drove. I sat with my feet up on the chair facing her.

"Yes but he didn't get me any piano, he got me my piano India. The piano I played in Australia. How much do you think it would have costed to ship a fucking grand piano. I still can't believe it."

"I have no idea but I'm assuming loads."

"But that's a lot of effort to go to right? Like I get that he's loaded and money isn't an issue but he could have spent the same amount or more on a chanel bag to make me happy but clearly he wanted to do something more than that right? Or am I just reading into all this too much India?" I consoled in her like I used to and was once again grateful to have her back too.

"I wish I could tell you Saz, I wish I could get into his head. But it does seem like a little much. Then again he proposed to Perrie at such a young age and have you seen the size of that diamond? It doesn't strike me odd that Zayn does such extravagant things." She shrugged.

"Ugh India what am I doing? I feel so caught up in this whole Zayn-Perrie-Me love triangle and everytime I try to get out of it and convince myself I'm done with him he'll do something like this and I'll go through the cycle again."

"I know Saz, these things take time. Don't punish yourself for being in this cycle though, you're doing the best you can." She assured before taking a sip of her coffee. I smiled, leaning my head against my seat and admired her presence. She noticed and looked at me with a nervous look.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" She laughed.

"No reason, it's just good to finally have you back. I didn't realise you were like 90% of my support system." I said looking down to my cup as I admitted I actually did need her in my life.

"As are you Saz. It sucked not having you to talk to about Niall and about just everything that went wrong."

"Well we're friends now so thats all that matters."

"Exactly. As for the Zayn situation, I think that you just need to focus on getting over him and yes there will be times when you feel absolutely in love with him but you will pull yourself out of those times and eventually move on."

"But I feel like I've been trying to do that for months now but I can't move on and I don't see how I will." I slumped in my seat feeling hopeless once more.