Accidentally in Love // z.m

Twenty One

I sucked in all the air that filled the chic, expensive car I was now seated in. The chauffeur looked at me through the review mirror with apprehension, confused as to why I hadn't left the vehicle yet. And letting all that air out of my lungs in one heave still wasn't enough to prepare me for the day ahead. My palms were sweaty, knees weak, arms spaghetti, my heart beat thunderous and my saliva glands over producing as I sat nervously in the back seat of this BMW unsure if I could even make it out of the car let alone through this wedding. 

"Miss," I heard my driver say from the front seat and I raised my hand to silence him.

"I need a minute." Or maybe a few hours. What if I just stayed in this car until it was over? Technically I still attended the wedding... Ok the longer you stay seated the worse your nerves will become. I took in one last breath then in one sudden movement I pushed the door open, grabing the strap of my Chanel purse and stepping out of the car. When I shut the door behind me and felt the car move away did I finally release that breath and take a look at my surroundings. The first thing that hit me was the sweet scent of vanilla which somehow made the scenery look ten times more beautiful and the wedding ten times more real. It was an out door day wedding and everyone was dressed in glamourous attire. The white gate that encaged the reception was laced with beautiful white roses, something that would seem welcoming only made me want to turn around and run away. The weather was perfect, the location was perfect and the bride and groom were perfect. There was nothing I could say to make myself feel better about the reality of it all.  I looked around me for a familiar face but I didn't recognise a single one. Accepting that I would have to go in alone, I managed to bring one foot infront of the other and walk through the sky high gates of hell. I could already feel my stomach in my throat and the ceremony hadn't even started. Zayn was right when he said it would be small. There were only a few rows of seats before the large platform that was also covered in white roses. There was also a small orchestra playing near the platform including a mother fucking harp. I checked my phone for the time, a few minutes early. I may aswell take my seat and let instagram distract me until this thing starts. I walked towards the back row, sitting right in the corner incase I needed tan easy escape route. I kept my head down on my phone, not really paying attention to what I was looking at as my mind began racing. This is happening. With every second that passes I'm loosing him. I shuddered at the thought. The only way I was going to get through this was if I just didn't think about the reality of it all. Let's pretend this is just a movie and we are all actors. And you know what else? I'm the hotest actor here right now so they better pay me the best. The thought put a small smile on my face but it was soon wiped away at the sound of Harry's voice. "Sahara are you okay?" I felt his hand on my shoulder and I almost broke down right there. I swallowed the feeling away and looked up at him, giving him the best smile I could muster. And also taking in how attractive he looked. His hair was pushed back effortlessly and he wore a plain black suit with a white shirt, half unbuttoned. I couldn't help but admit his make up was made to perfection. 

"Yeah, I'm fine. Where is everyone?" I asked looking around him to see if the others were near... if he was near.

"We're all in Zayn's room helping him prep but I thought I'd come out here and see if you were alright." I'm really tired of people thinking they need to look after me through this. I shrugged my shoulders in annoyance.

"I don't see why you needed to but thanks, you can go back now." I said, rather bluntly. He frowned, pressing his lips together and sitting down beside me. 

"Don't be mad at me." 

"Shut up." I spat. He chuckled and I narrowed my eyes at him. "I'm glad you're finding the humour in my misery." I said sarcastically. I paused but he was still smirking at me. "You can fuck right off now." I said pointing my finger away from us in order for him to follow but he stayed put and continued to give me that stupid dimpled smirk that made a thousand girls across the globe cry.