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I stared down into the bowl of cereal that was placed in front of me, it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders because now Jack knew everything and it felt so much better. I still had that twinge of fear in me, I was terrified. Alex was back in London and the way those girls talked about him, it sounded exactly like he was when I first met him.
Jack was in the shower while I sat at the kitchen table, my hair was thrown in a messy bun but I pulled my hood up to cover my head.

The door burst open, Joe rushed and his wild eyes scanned the apartment anxiously. He sighed when he entered the kitchen and his eyes fell on me.

"Oh my god Jess, thank god you are okay." Joe spoke as he rounded the table and he kneeled down beside me.

That was the thing though I wasn't okay, the truth was I felt on edge.

"I'm such a terrible brother, I can't believe I missed your call. Something could've -" Joe began, but I cut him off.

"No you're not, you're not okay? I need to learn to deal with my own problems. I can't expect someone to come running to me every time something bad happens." I snapped, my tone was harsh.

"Jess, you have anxiety it's not your fault. You shouldn't have to deal with things on your own either." Joe shot back, but I just shook my head.

"What do I do if there's nobody there Joe? I need to learn how to figure my own problems out." I told him.

"Jess-" I didn't let him finish as Conor and Josh entered the kitchen with Jack.

"You okay?" Conor and Josh questioned.

I don't know why but I felt like I was going to explode, I couldn't take it.

"Do you tell everyone?" I asked Jack and he leaned against the counter, the smile fell from his face.

"I just told the guys, Ella, Lexa and Zoe. I didn't think yo-" I cut him off too as it all became too much.

"That's the thing Jack, you didn't think. You just told everyone without asking me and now everyone is going to tip toe around me like I could break at any second!" I screamed, I was seething and I couldn't control myself as I stood up.

"Jess, I was worried about you." Jack said as he stepped towards me.

"Well I'm fine, but none of you think that obviously!" I argued.

"He was only trying to help." Joe said as he defended Jack.

"That's the thing I don't need help! I don't want any help okay, so can you guys just give it a rest?" I snapped as I stormed out of the apartment.

I heard them calling for me, but I kept walking. Once I reached the street I got in a taxi and went to my apartment. Thankfully, when I arrived there Ella wasn't there. I walked into my room and slammed the door shut and locked it.

I stormed into my bathroom and looked in the mirror, my eyes had dark circles around them. My skin had paled and my eyes watered with tears. Then the tears streamed down my cheeks and I shook violently, I slid down against the door until I fell to the floor.

I couldn't believe what I had done, I had just turned everyone against me. I couldn't control myself, it was like an immense anger took over me and I just exploded on everyone.

A couple of hours had passed and then I could here the door of the apartment open. There was shuffling before I heard the door slam shut again. I had truly messed up and I knew I had to make up for it so I knew that there was only one person I could go to that I could get to help.

So with that in mind, I had a shower and changed into some black jeans, white converse, a white t-shirt and a denim jacket.
I pulled my hair into a ponytail and slipped my sunglasses on. I grabbed my car keys, I wasn't bothered to put on makeup.

I got in my car and started to drive, my phone buzzed and there was a message from Lexa.

I heard what happened, you okay?

I quickly text back that I made a huge mistake and I was going to make up for it, but I didn't have the heart to text everybody else. I hope that Lexa passed on my message, they were probably worried about me right now. That's why I had left a note on the table by the door letting them know that I had gone out incase they came looking for me.

I took a deep breath as I pulled up to the house, I rested my hands on the steering wheel. I didn't think that I'd ever be able to do this, but I knew if I wanted everyone to forgive me that I'd have to do this.

So I got out of my car and unwillingly climbed the steps to the door, I raised my hand and knocked on the door three times. I waited for someone to answer the door and once I heard footsteps coming towards the door I put a smile on my face.

The door opened and I got ready to speak, I could see I had caught the person by surprise.

"What are you doing here?"

Author's note:

Ooh sorry this is a crappy chapter but I wanted to get something up since I hadn't for awhile...

Sorry it's short too!!

Sorry for making Jessica fall out with everyone, but don't worry guys things will soon work out.

Who do you think Jessica went to for help?

Also the next chapter will most likely be skipped ahead by a few weeks just to let you all know.

Also it is with a heavy heart that I say the end will be coming soon, well it has to eventually I am afraid.

But don't fear I'm thinking of doing a sequel or spin off so you let me know what you guys think of that.

Oh god, I feel like I apologise too much in all of these author's notes.

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