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"What are you doing here?" Lydia asked, the surprise was clear on her face.

"I-I need your help." I stuttered out, Lydia looked at me confusedly before letting me inside.

I followed her into her living room, there was a soft, grey couch, a glass coffee table, a flat screen hung up on the wall as well as an arm chair beside a wooden cabinet.

"Take a seat make yourself at home," Lydia urged as she ran to the kitchen to make tea.

I took a deep breath and sat on the couch while I waited for her. I knew that we hadn't ended on the best of terms, but after all Jack and her had grew up together and people made mistakes. I knew that this was a big step on the road to forgiveness and I was prepared to take it if it meant that Jack and I would be okay.
If it meant that I could find a way to get others to forgive me.

Lydia handed me a cup of tea with a small smile and I thanked her.

"You need my help?" Lydia questioned as she sat beside me.

"I've completely messed up with all my friends, my brother and Jack." I started, but Lydia spoke next and her words sparked interest in me

"When I kissed Jack, I knew it was completely wrong. Hell, he pushed me away and he told me that you were it for him. You were all he ever needed and I was stupid because I guess that I just missed him so much that this feeling just took over me and it was a spur of the moment thing. Now I realise how selfish I was, I knew about you and I still did it and I knew you would be hurt because Jack would never keep it from you." Lydia revealed and it felt as if everything made sense in that moment.

The things she said about Jack were so true and I love him and I'm willing to do anything to get him back because he was it for me too.

"I forgive you." I stated and Lydia stopped rambling and looked at me.

"You're so selfless, Jack and you are meant for each other. I saw the way you looked at him, I know you need my help so what can I do?" Lydia asked with a bright smile, it was a real smile and it wasn't fake.

After I had explained what happened with my anxiety attack and how I lost it because I got pissed at Jack and Joe when they were only trying to help me. Lydia understood why they'd be mad at me and now she would help me fix everything.

"I think I know what you can do, but it's going to take a lot of confidence..." Lydia trailed.

"Whatever it is I'll do it," I assured her, I just wanted everything to turn back to normal.

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It was the night of Joe's annual Halloween party, I had asked Lydia if she wanted to come as well but she had to go to her family's party.
I really hoped that her advise would work and that everything would work out. I didn't bother to dress up as I felt if this didn't work out I would probably have to leave.

So with a deep breath I got of my car and knocked on Joe's door after taking the elevator. I lifted my eyes from the floor as the door opened and my eyes met Joe's, a sigh escaped his lips and he pulled me into his arms hugging me tightly.

"Thank god you are okay," Joe breathed as he closed the door.

I could hear the music and I knew that all of the boys were probably in the living room.

"I'm really sorry." I said and my eyes watered.

"I know you didn't mean it, I'm just so glad you're okay. I got really worried." Joe admitted.

"I know that I shouldn't have come here and that everyone is probably pissed at me, but I have a plan so don't worry." I reassured Joe and I told him all about what I was going to do and I just hoped this worked out because if it didn't then I've lost everything I loved.