letters assembled.

lonely

Let me say this to start.
Im ready to die alone.
I can, through much difficulty forget about you. I can move on.
I know I can.
Fuck I don't want to though.
Okay back to reality.
Because 'truthfully'... Who really cares what I want?
Not even I care enough to know what I want.
Do what you want. Do whats best for you, because im used to this feeling.
Im used to being the last thought on your mind.
Im used to last place Truthfully.
Okay again,
Lets get back to reality for a moment.
I know It doesn't matter.
If only it did.
If only you really cared.
Hah. Let me shut my mouth up before I personally decapitate our connection with my cold hands.
Im trying to be understanding.
Im trying to be patient.
But everyday that passes I feel us move closer and closer apart.
Its not like that first day anymore and that saddends me.
Maybe we arent meant to make it.
Maybe this isn't whats best for either of us.
God I don't want to move on and forget you.
My previous words still stand. I still feel that connection to you.
But I feel your feelings changing.
I don't blame you, nor will I but I can feel it.
Maybe thats good for us. Maybe your feelings are intensifying? Or maybe you are realizing that you don't want me and that you jumped into something you thought you wanted but really don't. Eitherway it doesmt effect the outcome.
Maybe this isnt the end. After all My feelings haven't died or changed even a little bit.
I can't have something that isn't genuine though.
I just can't.
Alright. I need to get off my phone.
Not like I have a single messege from anyone so lemme just sleep now.
Fucccc it lmao.