letters assembled.

you know.

You know I still think about you.
You hit me up the otherday out of nowhere. It confused me. Why would you 'check up' on me? Why do you care?
The flame sparks in my mind that one day I can be with you again. That one day the old you will come back... Maybe...
You call my interests ugly... You call them weird.
You call the people that recently hurt me an asshole. Someone I should have never trusted.
Yeah, I talk about what I told her about you.
Yeah you told me what she told me about you was not true.
It wouldn't of been the first lie she told I respond.
I tell you how hurt I am that she could do that to me but hold back the urge to tell you that you hurt me so much worse. Yeah I hold back the information that I would not have left her for my ex.
Not even for you.
Even through the doubt that I was loyal to her and would never did to her what she did to me.
Yeah. We talk for a little bit... You send me some screenshots and i see the emoji next to my name.
It saddens me and I wonder how you can even have me as a contact anymore.
Yeah, you arent saved in my phone so I don't try to text you. I delete our messeges so I can't rember your number and hopefully I won't hit you up.
Hitting you up and hearing your voice just reminds me of what things were like.
Yeah. I promised to buy you some shopkins... Based on all that shit that happened all those years ago.
Fuck remembering our skype calls hurts.
Why can't I forget you. I hate you.
But I love you so much.
It bothers her that I still waste my time to talk about her.
Yeah. I know I shouldn't have held those empty promises against her.
I knew they held no weight so why did I try.
Maybe its when she said that sometimes she was head over heels for me.
Maybe its because she said that no matter what she would be there for me.
Which one am I talking about even? I think to myself silently.
They both meant so much to me.
They both dropped me like I was nothing.