letters assembled.

Iams

How could you act like you really loved me?
How could you tell me with that look in your eye.
Why did you change?
Why did you switch up?
I gave you everything and you betrayed me...
Years later You still cross my mind as I try to be happy.
I remember the conversations we had.
The laughs we had.
I remember that look in your eyes the first time you said it...
How could you do this to me?
Of course I am guilty also.
Letting my emotions take over like that.
I said so many things I wish I could take back and for that I am sorry.
I did not know how to react when you left.
I did not know how to live without you.
Once I tasted your love I could not go without it.
But. I did.
And through a few bad relationships and bad years things have slowly gotten better for me, I have grown and matured. I have learned life lessons and have been in some fucked up situations.
I have been to places of my mind none
Of you can even fathom and come to conclusions that make perfect sense.
I have seen the birth and death of humanity. Of existence.
Trust me when I say this... I have changed too in your absence.
I still think of you. I still see you around.
You live on the better side of town and go to that private school.
Yeah.
Im so sorry I did not say happy birthday to you... Not that I should have but.
It was three days ago and I very specifically remembered it was your 17th birthday and I just..... I cannot bring myself to talk to you.
I cant break like I did when you left.
And for some reason I dont think I will.
You gave me some of the best memories ill ever remember and some of the worst feelings i've ever experienced.
You are not the girl I love, no shes gone.
Lost inside of you.
I still miss her.
I still want to talk to her.
I guess that part of my life is just over?
Shes in the past eitherway...