Lost (BTS ff)

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I've lost everything. And I'm still alive. I suffer. It hurts. There's nothing left to live for. It feels like I'm living in a different person's life, or a ghost's life maybe. If I died................would anyone even notice? ....................would anyone even care? I know I like Suga but I don't think he likes me back. There are better people to look for out there than me. There is a big party coming up at someone's house. I forget who. I forget a lot of things now. Who am I?

Suga POV

"Where's Amber?" I ask the guys. She's been very distant lately. Does she need help? Is something bothering her?

"Hyung I don't know where she is but she seems really down lately." J-hope replied. Hah. Like I haven't noticed. "Why? Are you gonna ask her to go the party with you?" Oh ya. The Party. I should. I shouldn't. What if she doesn't like me back? What if she does? "Hello, you still haven't answered my question.

"Yes."

Back to other POV

I was leaning against my locker when Suga suddenly appears. I just look at the ground. He seems...nervous? But what do I know. I'm just a lost nobody. All of a sudden, he grabs my hand, dragging me to the cafeteria. He makes me sit down at the table he always sits at with his friends. He stares at me. What the heck?! Did I do something wrong??? Is he mad? I see a couple of girls looking my way, jealousy evident in their eyes.

"You seem really down lately. Amber, what's wrong?" I stay silent, not knowing what to say. Would he care if I said that I've lost everything? Probably not. But then again, I have nothing to lose. I tell him everything. All the boys look at me in shock while I tell the story and J-hope, Jimin, and V all start crying. Everyone hugs me and tells me that it'll be alright. But will it?

"Do you remember when I saved you from the drunk guy?" Suga said out of the blue. I nod my head. "Remember when I told you that you owe me one?" I nodded again. "I know how you can make it up." I was curious: what did he want me to do? "You're coming to the party with me. As my date." I froze. Was I dreaming? The boys were all in shock. Suga smirked and planted a kiss on my lips before walking away. I was still frozen to my spot. I couldn't move.

Suga. Just. Freaking. Kissed. Me.

-And it was my first kiss too.