Lost (BTS ff)

•19•

I woke up to Kumamon licking my face, again. I seriously love this puppy so much. I ran away on Friday, and Jin found me yesterday so, it's Sunday today, which means that I have to spend the whole day in the same house as Suga. I already know that I'm gonna have to do my best to avoid him. The scene of Suga and Lilly keeps replaying over and over again in my head. It takes a lot of effort not to cry about it. V sits up next to me. I can hear people talking downstairs which tells me that we're not the only ones awake. I grab Kumamon and go to the bathroom to wash up.

Time Skip~

After breakfast, everyone gathered in the living room to talk about a very important matter. Most would call this a 'family meeting' but we're...not exactly a family. Again, I made sure not to sit next to Suga. The more I avoid him, the better. 

"Since we haven't officially adopted Kumamon yet, we are going to have a vote. If you want to keep Kumamon, raise your hand."

I raised my hand and so did V, Jungkook, J-hope, and Suga. 5-3. Kumamon is staying with us!

"The people who want to keep Kumamon have to take care of him. Everyone who voted not to keep him doesn't have to do anything for the dog. That's fair, right?" We all nodded our heads. All of a sudden J-hope spoke up. 

"Hey Jimin? How come you didn't want to keep Kumamon? I know Rapmon hyung and Jin hyung are both too busy to take care of a dog, but you have plenty of time." I was actually wondering about this too. Jimin looked kinda nervous.

"Well...uh. You see.....the thing is...I'm kinda scared of dogs..." What?! How could anyone be afraid of the cute fluffy puppy in my lap right now? We all gave Jimin a weird look but shrugged it off.  

"Okay. You guys go upstairs and split the jobs between yourselves evenly." Jin said. We decided to go into V's room. We all sat in a circle on the carpet and of course, I sat away from Suga. Unfortunately, he sat right across from me. 

"So...who's scooping the poop?" V began. 

"Let's not get into that yet..." I cut in. "So there's food and water, walking, playing, and poop scooping. And there's five of us so... How about the person who scoops the poop gets to play with Kumamon. And we take Kumamon out to do his business in the morning, evening, and night. Um that makes six jobs tho sooo..." All the guys were looking at me. "How about playing isn't a job." They nodded. "How about whoever takes Kumamon out during the day and for a walk has to scoop up whatever he leaves behind while they're out. That makes enough jobs..." I finished.

"So there's food and water, walking, morning, evening, and night. Who wants to feed Kumamon?" Suga asked. Jungkook raised his hand. "Okay. Jungkook is in charge of food and water."

"I'll walk Kumamon," I said. "That leaves taking Kumamon out every morning, evening, and at night."

"I'll take him out during the morning!" V spoke up.

"I call evening!" J-hope added. 

"Fine then. I'll take him out at night," Suga said. Now everyone had a job. Jungkook, V, and I all spent the rest of the day getting Jimin to not be afraid of Kumamon. The day went by fast and I ended up spending the night with V again. I so can't wait for school tomorrow. Please note my sarcasm. -___-

Time Skip~

I woke up and Kumamon wasn't next to me. I guess V already took him out. I got up and washed up. When I exited the bathroom, V came in with Kumamon. I checked the clock. I didn't have time to walk Kumamon. I'll do it after school. I ate a quick breakfast and left for school as fast as I could to avoid Suga. Halfway to school, someone grabbed my arm. I turned around to see Suga. Great. 

"Let go of me right now." He didn't. "I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN YOU STUPID LIAR!" I screamed. I couldn't help it. Tears were streaming down my face again. 

"No." Suga said firmly. I tried to free my arm from his grasp but he was too strong. "I'm not letting you go until you listen to me. Let me explain! It was an accident-"

"that you kissed her back? An accident?! THAT WAS NOT A FREAKING ACCIDENT!!!" I shot back. 

"I was looking for you and she just suddenly pulled me in-"

"And you kissed her back." I finished. "I loved you. But I guess you didn't feel the same. So let go of me right now, and go kiss your girlfriend again." I knew it would break my heart to see him with another girl but it was for the best. He loved her anyway. Not me.

"She's not my girlfriend. You are." Suga said. No. I wouldn't let him break my heart again. 

"No. I'm. Not." I said through gritted teeth. "Didn't you figure it out already? We're over. We were over since the moment your lips met Lilly's."

"No we're not. It won't happen again. I love you. Do you love me?" He'll hurt you again. Some part of me whispered. You'll just lose him again. This was for the best.

"No." I managed. "No, I don't love you and I never will, ever again. I won't make the same stupid mistake. I. Hate. You."

"You don't mean that."

"I don't love you. I HATE YOU!" I screamed. Suga let go of my hand. I walked away and looked back only once. He was crying and stood there in shock. He was alone, heartbroken, and miserable. 

Just like I was.

Just like he made me.