Lost (BTS ff)

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I stayed at the hospital all night...to receive...the happiest news of my life! Kumamon survived but he will have to be hospitalized for a bit and then can only rest at home. Everyone was so relieved to hear that Kumamon was okay. What a relief...

Time skip~

Jin told me that I'm not allowed to walk Kumamon by myself anymore. I can't even leave the house by myself anymore. I can only go if I'm with someone else. Wonderful. -.-' Anyways, I keep seeing Suga staring at me. Weird, huh. I was walking upstairs by myself while the guys were goofing off downstairs. All of a sudden Suga jumped out from behind a corner.

"You're not still cutting your arm, right?" he asked with a serious face.

"I'm not," I replied simply.

"Show me your arm so I can see if you're lying or not." 

"No. I don't want to show you my arm." I hid my arm behind my back. I didn't feel comfortable with him looking at my scarred arm.

"So you're lying? Are you still cutting?! Show me!" he shouted.

"I'm not cutting!" I said. "I just don't want to show you my arm!"

"JUST SHOW ME!!!" he yelled.

"WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE?! YOU LEFT ME FOR LILLY! AREN'T YOU HAPPY NOW?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I screamed, and without letting him say another word, I ran up to V's room and locked the door. I heard a knock and automatically knew who it was.

"Amber, please let me in...I'm sorry. Just let me explain." This ticked me off. He wanted to...EXPLAIN?! After he freaking kissed another girl in front of my face, he wanted to...to EXPLAIN?!?! No. Way. In. Hell. So what. After he explains, what's gonna happen? Nothing. It couldn't have been an accident... so why does he need to talk to me about it?! If he loves her, and not me...he can say it to my face. It's over between us. And if he still doesn't get it, if he still thinks I love him...then I have to make sure he knows. I opened the door.

"Thank you so much and I'm sorry. I really am," he said after shutting the door behind him. 

"Just say it," I hissed. He looked confused but I knew it was all just an act.

"What? Say what?" 

"Stop playing dumb and just say it to my face!!!" I said, a bit frustrated now.

"I have no idea what you're talking about Amber. What-"

"Just tell me. Tell me that you love Lilly and not me. Tell me the truth," I said, balling my fists in anger.

"But I don't love her-" THAT'S IT. I'M SO DONE.

"NO! YOU LOVE HER AND NOT ME!!! I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU CAN'T SAY IT TO MY FACE! I REALLY LOVED YOU AND I GAVE YOU MY HEART. BUT...but you threw it away. You broke it and stepped on the shattered pieces... I trusted you with my heart. You said you love me, but that was a lie... I ALREADY TOLD YOU I HATE YOU SO GO AWAY!!! All you ever did was make everything worse..." Before he could deny anything I stormed out of my room. But Suga recovered from his shock quickly.

"Amber! WAIT!!!" He still doesn't get it, does he... I knew what I had to do.

"V oppa?" I said. He turned around looking surprised. Suga was right behind me.

"What?" he asked.

"Will you...will you be my boyfriend?" I blurted out. All the guys gasped and I think Suga was choking.

"But aren't you with...Suga hyung?" he asked.

"What? No way! Well...I thought we were until I saw him kissing another girl when he thought I wasn't looking." All the guys started glaring at Suga. "You're really sweet and I think we would make a cute couple."

"Hm...Okay!" But then he furrowed his eyebrows. "But it depends if you love m-"

"I love you SO much V oppa!!!" I said and hugged him. "And I always will." I then gave him a quick peck on the cheek and made sure Suga was watching. He looked horrified. Good. 

For the rest of the day, I never let go of V's hand and I kept telling him that I loved him. Meanwhile, Suga looked like he was gonna murder V, by the way he kept glaring at him. And all the other guys looked like they were gonna murder Suga because of what he had done to me. Now he knows exactly how I felt: 

heartbroken.

That's what happens when the person you love most

 breaks your heart.