My Alpha Mate

XIV

Jade's Point of View:

I sat in the back of the class and part of me worried about the damage Alya caused with her words to Jace this morning. She kept apologizing and I forgave her. Her intentions were clear. She just wanted me to be okay but now I worried if Jace was okay. He never showed up to homeroom. I waited for him to show up. Every time the door opened I looked up but he was nowhere to be found. When the bell rang I tried not to think the worse. His car was in the parking lot so I don't think anything happened to him. I just think he's avoiding to be around me because everything Alya said.

When the bell rang, I stuck my headphones back in and tucked my notebook away in my bag. I walked out the class, and my mind was completely taken by the words in the song Guillotine by Jon Bellion. I wasn't paying attention to anything or anyone around me. To think I would've learned my lesson when I was knocked on my ass by a stranger. Which was the same thing that happened but not by a stranger this time. 

I fell on the floor after bumping into a rock solid figure. Sparks flew when we touched and then I was torn away from that feeling in the same second as I hit the floor. I looked up at Jace, thank god he's okay, but I looked away. I grabbed my phone and tried helping myself up. "Please let me help you, " he begged, putting out his hand. I took the kind gesture. As I put my hand in his, I couldn't help but notice the size difference. 

He pulled me to my feet and towered over me, still holding my hand and I couldn't deny the feelings I felt when we stood there but I wasn't going to act like everything was okay. "Thank you, but can I have my hand back now?" I asked still not making eye contact. "Sorry..." he trailed letting go of my hand. I tried to sidestep him but he followed me. "Excuse me. " I said. 

"No, we need to talk." He divulged. "I know but I told you yesterday I would think about it. " I told him. "No, I'm not waiting anymore, the longer we wait and the more we wait, the more it hurts. I'm done putting this on hold Jade!" he exclaimed. "Jace please not now.." I begged. "No!" his voice boomed. Part of me felt unready to look him in the eyes. The other part of me said it was time. He was right. "Okay..." I said giving in and following Jace to wherever he wanted to have this talk. 

As we walked, I saw that girl. The one who happily pressed herself on my man. She was in a tight revealing shirt and a pencil skirt. She was proudly making her way towards him and I was just lagging behind him. I had to fix this picture quickly before she made her slutty appearance in my man's face. Why did I care so much though?

I jogged up closer to Jace, grabbing his hand and resting my head on his arm while trying to keep up with him. The smug that was growing, quickly dropped. Jace looked down at me, I knew he was surprised by my sudden outburst of affection. I just looked at him and gave him the fakest smile I was in the mood to give. I think he knew what I was doing when he looked up and saw her. He immediately looked away. Once we made it outside, we stopped, and I quickly dropped his hand and made some distance between us. I guess this is where we're having our talk.

Jace's Point of View:

We were silent for about twenty seconds. I had no clue where to start. Jade just let her eyes wonder everywhere while waiting on me until she looked at me just when she was about to say something I spoke. "I love you. Not because I should, but because.. because I do. And I just can't explain it. " I proclaimed. I knew I left her speechless but just for a second. "You have a funny way of showing it, " she mumbled just loud enough for me to hear her. 

"Listen, I am truly sorry you may not believe me but I am. I didn't mean to hurt you, I love you too much to do any of that purposely. You know what It's like to lose control and react out of anger. What happened with Karla and me... I swear the first time I didn't do anything.." I tried to explain. "So what happened the second time," she said and the look on her face, it seemed like she was just expecting the worst and I was just getting scared thinking of what her reaction would be. What I said next could make or break us. 

"I'm waiting. " Her tone was stern and harsh. She was talking through gritted teeth. "My wolf..." I began but I became overwhelmed with guilt. A lump grew in the back of my throat and tears swelled my eyes. I could feel it getting harder and harder to find words. "My wolf... He was becoming impatient. He wanted to feel affection. With all the times you denied me and when I teased you I was teasing myself. He just wanted to feel some type of affection. We were desperate and... " I couldn't finish my explanation before breaking down uncontrollably. Breaking someone's heart is one thing, but facing what you did and having to look them in the eye while confessing the pain you inflicted upon them was worse.

I felt the most calming and warm touches ever, in a while. Sparks... that's what I felt. Static coursing through me. She had her arms wrapped around me to comfort me. "I understand." was all she said as she hugged me and I hugged her back. "I will never hurt you again. " I promised. "We'll see. " she said lowly.

I didn't know if she was ready to fully be mine, but whatever this was, it was a start and I loved it.