The One [ Namjoon FF | BTS ]

9. Let me make you forget him

He is kissing me on the lips. Kim Taehyung, my 6 years best friend is kissing me, in the moonlight. He just took my first kiss.

Yes, he is kissing me on the lips.
But I don't want to reject him, I don't even want to move actually, I just wan't this moment to last forever.
I've always felt so lonely, but I just feel like this kiss is filling all the loneliness I had in my heart for such a long time. I feel like my heart is going to explode. What If I had feelings with Taehyung but I've never noticed it because I was to focused on Namjoon, because I was too focused on someone who will never going to be able to give me the love I need to be happy.

After what It seemed to be an eternity, our lips disconected and I heard him say "I'm Sorry" with a shaky voice. Why is he sorry, is he sorry to care for me? Is he sorry to love me? There is no reason to be sorry. No words could come out of my mouth so I decided to kiss him back.
I have no idea where am I throwing myself into, but right now, my mind is just telling me to do it.
I felt his astonishment when I kissed him back and he took me in his arms and holded me tigh.

T : "I want to make you forget Namjoon, I want you to be happy and I want you to accept my feelings for you, you deserve nothing but love and attention and I promise you that I'll give you more than you could never expect! You deserve all of this, I love you, I love you so much, please accept my feelings"

(A/N : so cheesy I cringed)

He was begging me like he never did before. I was so confused, he was talking to me with his eyes locked in mine, waiting for me to react to his confessions.

S : "I-I.... yes uhm... I guess all of this happened for a reason and... yeah"

T : "Really?! Oh my god, I can't believe this, I can't!!" he suddenly stood up from the bench and started to throw his fist in the air like these fighters on the ring after a win" he was so cute and so funny!

S: "Taeeee!! Hahaha calm down please, sit down!"

T : "You don't know how much I've been waiting for this to happen!"

S : "Aww... you're so cute stop this! Let's walk a little bit, it's getting a little bit chilly"

T : "Uhm, yeah of course, come here!"
He took my hand and put it in his jacket pocket and we started to walk.

\Taehyung's POV/

She said yes. She wants to be my girlfriend.... dude I still can't believe this!
I've been in love with her since the beggining to be honest but I never had the guts to confess. I knew how much she loved Namjoon and I didn't wanted to lose her, lose our friendship. So I decided to step back and resonate myself so I let my feelings aside.
But with all the things that happened recently, I couldn't hold back what I had in my heart!

I feel like betraying Namjoon for that, because I think he has feelings for her and never admitted it to himself.
Eyes never lie and I saw how he acted when we were eating together and how he looked at Saia. But for once, I decided to be a little selfish and think about me.

While walking, I saw her looking at me insistently.
T : "Yes?"

S : "Uh, uhm nothing..." she suddenly looked down at her feet

T : "Come on, tell me what you have in your mind, I know when you're holding something!"

S : "You know me too well, that's frightening!"

T : "Don't try to change subject! Tell me!"
She waited a minute before talking, still walking through the night.

S : "I was just wondering... when did you fell in love with me?"
She stopped walking and she looked at me.

T : "Uh... I.. I don't really know.
I mean, I've always loved you because you were such a good person in my eyes and it didn't took me too long to grow feelings for you I guess"

S : "Oh... okay! And despite that, you accepted to help me with Namjoon, I mean... wow that's devotion right here!

T : "You know, I just wanted you to be happy, I mean, I still want you to be happy and forever happy obviously but... when I saw how much you were hurt by this whole situation, I just couldn't take it anymore. I was like whatever if he can't make her happy, I'll try to do so!" We started walking again, her hand still in my pocket, squeezing it.
She lowered her head but I saw a tear rolling in her cheek.

"Oh no! Why are you crying?" I lowered my face to her level and cupped her face with my hands.

S : "It's just.... I-I didn't know someone would actually care that much for me and... and listening to you saying this to me is just.."

T : "Ah come on baby! You will never know how much I love you and how much I care for you and for your well-being! That's what we call "being in love" I guess heheh"

S: "yeah *sniff*.. Tae ?"

T : "Yup?"

S : "I want to eat...I'm hungry"

T : "EH?" But we ate less than an hour ago..."

S : "And ? I'm hungry that's it! Let's go grab something to eat"

T : "Well If princess say so, let's go to the conveniant store and grab something to eat, and we'll go to my place If you don't mind! It's getting too cold to stay outside"

S : "Uh.... yes sure, let's go"

We walked all the way to the conveniant store and bought some instant ramen, some chips and vanilla milk.

\Your POV/

After we were done at the convinient store, we walked straight to his place. He told me that his mom was gone for the week for a business trip. I guess that's better... not that I have any dirty thoughts behind my mind but you know, we'll be more comfy just the two of us.

It was already 11:35 pm and I was exhausted by this day. Litteraly.

After a five minute walk, we finally arrived at his place.
As I was removing my shoes in the entrance, I felt my phone vibrating multiple times. Who the hell is it at this time ? I picked up the phone without looking at who was calling me.

S : "Hello?"

.. : "FINALLY! I'VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU FOR LIKE 30 MINUTES WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN I WAS SO WORRIED. DO YOU WANT ME TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK!"

S : "Oh... Namjoon?..."

-TBC-