The One [ Namjoon FF | BTS ]

16. I'm leaving... for now

I don't want to open my eyes. I don't want to wake up and realize it is all just a dream again. But I have to, I started to get out of breathe and decided to wake up. It was real, 100% real. Joon was standing there, just next to me, his eyes in mine trying to read in my mind.  We stayed like this for at least five minutes, if not more. I don't know why he did that, I don't know why he's not talking, why he always makes me feel confused. He keeps telling me I'm like a sister to him and then he does this. What is wrong with you, Joon?

Then, he suddenly got out of the bed and ran away as fast as he could.

"NAM-....Joon!" I tried to run after him but I wasn't dressed. I grabbed my pair of jeans, putted it in and went downstairs. His shoes were not there anymore, maybe I shouldn't go and just let him. I think he needs to be alone, me as well to be honest.

As I was sitting in the couch, I tried to understand what just happened. He kissed me. Like, for real, I don't even understand how this happened, I just wanted to take a nap and then this happens. Does he has feelings for me? Was it just in the moment? Or he just needed some kind of comfort after all that happened between him and Hyuna?... Urghhh I have milions of questions in my head and knowing him, I'll nevet get the answer. As I was thinking about this, my phone suddenly ringed. I didn't took the time to look at who was calling and took the call imediately.

S : "Hello?"

* : " Hey, can you come to the Coffee Place right now please?"

S : "Nam?... Uh, of course I'll be here in-...in fifteen minutes"

N : "Okay, I'll be waiting for you at the round table next to the counter"

S : "Alright, see ya"

*beep beep*

Okay.... He wants to talk, I'm stressing out so bad, I don't want to hear what he has to say because I already know what is he going to say. I already know the script, that was just a mistake and he's sorry and he considered himself as my brother and my best friend and he'll never have those kinds of feelings for me and blah blah blah...

* At the Café *

N : " Listen Saia, I didn't wanted to do that, you know... I-I am truly sorry if it caused some confusion in your mind, but you know how much I love you as my bestest friend... as of right now, let's pretend nothing happened, ok?"

S : " I know that, but why would you do this anyways, why would you go into my room, in my bed, kiss me for 10 minutes and pretend like nothing happened? What's wrong with you? Why do you always make everything to make me confused ? First, with your weird behavior when I told you I'm dating Tae, and now this?! I'm getting sick of this Joon. So now, tell me the truth, what's going on ?

N : " I didn't do anything!"

S : " Come on! Don't play the innocent card, you know what I'm talking about. Something definitely changed in your behavior with me, we're not what we used to be"

N : " I should tell this to you, dear... why are you so sensitive over this? Don't you have a boyfriend? D-.."

S : " Yes I do, and you kissed me knowing this, okay? So, who is wrong right now? And don't change subject, and answer me!

N : " It's... I can't get over her so I tried to kiss you to see what will happen with me, are you happy now?"

He what?...

S : "You what?... Are you kidding me?"

N : "You wanted me to tell the truth, so I'm telling you the truth!"

I've never felt that heartbroken in my whole entire life, that's not possible, he's lying, I want to tell myself that he's actually lying... I can tell, he is lying! There is no other option!

S : "Stop lying to me, stop lying to yourself..."

N : "I'm not"

S : "You are... You're a bad liar, remember. There is something else and I'll find out anyways, so get ready. "I'm going home right now"

N : "Oh yeah, uhm I forgot to tell you, for the two weeks left before University start again, I'm staying at my parents house they called me to spend a little bit of time with my grandma, she's in town for the rest of the holidays"

S " Oh, uhm, great! When are you going? I told him, waking up from the chair at the same time

N : "Tonight..."

S : "Okay, come home and prepare your stuff then. It's already getting dark outside"

* at home *

As I was cooking some food, I heard Namjoon getting downstairs with a suitcase. It'll be weird without him for two weeks... He usually proposes me to go with him every time he goes back to town but not this time I guess. He's hiding something from me, I'm sure of that.

S : "Are you going now?"

N : "Uh, yeah there is a train at 7:45 I'm taking this one!"

S : "Eat something at least... I made some pizza, do you want some?

N : "No it's okay, I'm not really hungry anyways"

S : "You just have coffee in your stomach since this morning. Here, take it with you, in case you get hungry during the trip" I handed him a slice of pizza in a plastic box with some pickles in the side.

N : " You didn't have to... thank you! I'm going now..."

S : " Uhm, yeah... or else you're going to be late to take your train... and kiss your parents and your grandma for me!" I hesitated a minute but before he opened the door and I hugged him, he hugged me back. "Text me when you arrive! Have a safe trip"

N : "Yes, don't worry! Don't open to strangers and don't go out at night!"

S : " Yes daddy, haha! Bye Joon!"  he opened the door and left.

\Namjoon's POV/

I'm sorry to let you alone Saia, but I have to... You'll understand one day...

- TBC -