The One [ Namjoon FF | BTS ]

20. Feelings

\Namjoon's POV/

It was now 2p.m. as I finally stepped out of the bus to go home. I'm not going to lie, I feel stressed as heck. As I was going in the building, I started to get clammy hands and my breathe was a little too short as my heart was beating as fast as when I run for hours. 

There is nothing to worry about, but thinking about all of this makes me feel scared for a reason, but I know now is the right time and it won't happen twice. 

I was looking for my keys in my pocket when the door suddenly opened and a body crashed onto mine. It was Saia, she looked distressed and she started swearing under her breathe.

" Yo crazy!? What is happening!"

" I lost my notebook, my notebook is nowhere to be found I'm getting crazy I-I think I forgot it on the beach I don't know!"

" Okay, calm down! Let's go in, don't worry don't worry!"

"Calm down? You want me to calm down? I can't it's so important to me you don't even know!"

We went inside the apartment and while I was taking off my shoes, I took what's inside my pocket. "Is this what you're looking for?" Her eyes widened at the look of the notebook in my hand looking at it, mouth wide open. I think she wanted to talk but no sound came out of her mouth. "D-Did you opened it ? Did you read it? Give it to me, now!"

I was holding her notebook as high as possible so she can't reach it. She tried to catch it, tiptoeing with the hope to catch it. "I'll give you back your notebook if you answer my question first!" She looked at me with a confused and annoyed look. "What question sir?" "Are we going to stay in the hallway? I don't think so, so please Miss Saia, let's go to the living room first, shall we?" 

We walked into the living room and I sat down on the couch but Saia stayed up in front of me, with her arms crossed and her angry-evilish look. She's scary dude! "So, what's your question Namjoon, hurry up I won't stay here forever!" I looked at the notebook in my hand, and then looked at her, a little bit of fear and excitement in my eyes. I stood up and walked to her direction, stopping at not even an inch from her. I could tell from her body language, I could tell from her bottom lip shaking, I could tell from her eyes looking down that she is scared of something right now. Scared to know I may know what was going on inside her heart for so many years. "My question is... you know what, screw it!"  i threw the notebook on the coffee table and  took her collar and locked my lips with hers. 

The more time passes, the less her body against mine felt tense and she started kissing me back. That's what I've been waiting for, that's what I wanted her answer to be. No words, just action. 

Our lips parted away, it was just us, in the middle of the living room, with only background noise our irregular breathing, trying to catch our breath and realize what just happened. It just felt like the entire world stopped for a moment, a moment where we finally connected with each other. I didn't say anything and took her in my arms, hugging her really tightly "I'm sorry I didn't realize it earlier, I've been lying to myself this whole time..." 

\Saia's POV/

"I'm sorry I didn't realize it earlier, I've been lying to myself this whole time..." 

I don't even know what to say nor react to what just happened. How am I feeling right now? Confused, suprised.. I feel like I'm going to explode in million pieces with all these emotions twirling around my head. He broke the hug and looked at me, with a shy smile plastered on his face.

" My question is... do you love me? Because I do"

He loves me... The man I've been in love with forever just confessed to me. Please someone pinch me and tell me it's not a dream, not again.

-TBC-