The One [ Namjoon FF | BTS ]

15. Don't leave

N : "Saia? Can I tell you something?"

S : " Mmmhh whuut?" I still had pizza in my mouth

N : " I... I actually really like you and I'm tired of holding this secret I had for so long in my heart"

S : " You... You what ?" Did I hear right?  Am I dreaming, someone pinch me!

N : " I said what I just said. I really like you, and not just... not just liking, as friends, it's-it's more than that for me" he got rid of the piece of pizza I had in my hand and leaned closer and closer to my face until our nose touched. He looked at me right in the eyes and whispered " Please, be mine"

N : "Saia ? Saia?! Yo, are you daydreaming ?! For the fifth time, give me the damn oil in your left, thank you!

S : Uh, what? Uhm, oh sorry, here it is.

Wow okay, I'm lacking of sleep, I'm getting completely crazy and this boy right here is not helping me at all.  Ugh, as if... I just want to punch myself in the face to wake me up.

S : Joon can we take the pizza with us and go home, I don't feel really great actually..." Ok, I'm lying but that's the only way to get out of this uncomfortable situation that I'm in right now. Woops.

N : " Do you want to go see the doctor? I... You don't seem right since this morning and  I think you may have catch a fever, you're red as heck  since we came here I don't want you to be sick three weeks before University

S : " No it's okay, I promise you it's just... I'm so tired I didn't got to sleep well last night and that's it, I need rest.

N : " Well, then let's go.

- AT HOME -

We finished eating the pizza with the TV on and I went straight up to my room to "rest". It's just 1:30 PM but I just want to sleep to forget all of this. My brain can't take all of this, I'm 24/7 confused and I don't know what to do nor think anymore. Let's just take a quick nap. I got rid of my clothes and went under my sheets.

\Namjoon's POV/
Does Taehyung made her pregnant or what, do I get ready to kill him ? She's been acting really weird today and I'm kind of worried to be honest, I don't want her to be sick. She didn't say a word when we came back home and  when we ate. I'll just have to be by myself this afternoon...

It's now 4:35PM and she's still sleeping, I should go check on her. I went upstairs and knocked lightly on the door to see if she was awake but after 2 minutes, no response. I decided to go inside. The curtains were half closed so it was quite dark in her room, I went close to her to see if she was still alive after a 3+ hours nap. I went to the other side of the bed and layed down next to her, facing her.
Ah, she looks so peaceful and so beautiful when she's asleep.

~ FLASHBACK - 12 YEARS AGO ~

N : Saaaaaia, wake up, wake up, let's go play outside it's snowing!
S : Let me sleep! I can't I'm sick!
N : But you'll miss the snow with me!
S : Stay with me then, sleep just next to me so when I wake up, you wake up with me, come here.
N : ok, let's do this.
S : Zzzzzz Zzzzzzz
N : You really look like a doll when you sleep
S : Zzzzz Zzzzzz

~ END OF FLASHBACK ~

Being here, looking at her sleeping reminds me of the good ol'time when we used to play everyday together and as far as I can remember, we always ended up taking naps because of her wanting to sleep all the time.
Just to think about that makes me smile so much.
I came closer to her and put a strand of hair behind her ear, and with her eyes still closed, she gave me the purest and cutest smile ever.

What are you doing to me, Kim Saia.

I need to get ouf of here and let her sleep, when I was about to wake up, she grabbed my wrist and whispered something "Don't leave"

N : Hey, are you awake? It's been 3 hours isn't it enough sleep?
S : Don't leave please, n-not again... come here.
N : I-I'm not, I'm here don't worry.

I think she's still half asleep.... Yup, she is. I went back to the bed but facing the wall this time and I soon as put myseld on the bed, she back hugged me tightly.

She... she's only with her underwear, don't think about it, don't. Stay still. Don't move, don't be a dick.
Fuck, I have to make her move seriously, I turned over to the other side so I could face her and I...

\END Of Namjoon's POV/

His lips were touching mine, he was kissing me so deeply I think I started to feel dizzy. Just a dream, again, but now it feels so real.... So real...