If I tell you I love you,can I keep you forever?

H.E.A

After months of planning my moms wedding the day had finally come.Truthfully this wedding couldn't get more five star,A-list celebrity, fancier. I paced inside our hotel room moving with the flow of my blush pink dress.It was a designer of course but I somehow wasn't too worried about that at the moment.It just felt like something was missing or I felt I lost something I just couldn't think.

"Wow you look beautiful nieta."my Nana smiled pinching my rosy blushed cheeks. I'm 18 but could pass for a smooth 23 with this makeup.It was classic but something for a reality show.

"Thanks Nana."I grinned gripping my bouquet or cherry blossoms.

Rox was somewhere around here jumping for joy that Craig was singing at the wedding.I hate to sound mean but I could care less about his ex-band mate now that it's been over a year that we've spoken.Sadly they've broken up to pursue other opportunities in LA but no one has yet talked to me but Craig.Of course only because of my new soon to be baby sister,Roxi.Even though they both have broken up they still keep in touch as close friends like nothing ever happened romantically between them, weird I know. I mean at least she's been focused on herself lately and I'm proud of that.

"Okay how do I look?"my mother smiled turning around in her custom mermaid Pnina Tornai wedding gown.Trust me cameras were everywhere when Mom went on Say yes to the Dress at Kleinfelds. Talbot Magazines and E news have been covering everything since we moved into the mansion last fall.

"Beautiful mom."I teared hugging her tightly.

"Oh Carmen you're going to make me burst into tears and ruin my makeup."she laughed wiping her lower lashes.

"Alright limo is here, let's move people!"The wedding planner announced with a walkie talkie.The wedding is taking place outside at the Brooklyn botanic garden.The cherry blossoms were in bloom and I have to admit it was the most magical place to be married on such short months of planning but who wouldn't want a public figure getting married at their own establishment.
Today was May 1st and it just so happens that I and Rox graduate high school in a week.Rox has already started working as an assistant to the director of plays on Broadway. My photography has kicked off majorly with fashion magazines that I have a interview with Vogue's editor about interning this summer to see if I'll be a great fit for a permanent photographer after I begin school next fall.Everyone's proud of me and to be honest it didn't feel as great as I thought I would be. Making myself busy with school trying to forget the past.How can you?Prom comes, where's my date?My birthday comes where's my call or text or anything? I know I shouldn't be worried about this today of all days.Usually I ignore theses kinds of thoughts and try living my life like I did without him but that's hard when I couldn't remember a life without him.

"Now you may kiss the bride."the preacher rejoiced as guest clapped knocking me out of thought at how happy my mother was as a married woman to a senator. I held Tigers hand giving him to our new nanny as the photographers for took our pictures for some magazine. I forced a smile realizing I haven't smiled since him.God what is wrong with me I don't know why he kept lurking in my brain today.I don't love him anymore I've moved on to my future career and happiness.And so has he....

Everyone was inside whatever place we were at for the reception across from the wedding venue. The sun was setting and I just needed a breather from all the happy people inside. I didn't think today I'd be depressed when truly I'm happy he's my new dad and my mom found love again. Maybe I just wish it was me instead, not getting married but finding love again.

"Hey Carmen!" Rox grinned popping up into of me with cake.

"You want-Oh right your in that diet thing."she remembered.

"Ugh give it here."I groaned using this as a cheat day from my organic kick.

"Oh crap I think I left my purse at the wedding.Carmen can you go get it for me please?"she asked suspiciously.

"Um okay."I shrugged handing back the delicious moist marble cake.

It wasn't far but it was deserted with nothing but chairs stacked up to be put away after the wedding is over.Even from the wedding venue I could hear Craig's singing Miguel's part in Beautiful with the band they hired.He sounded great but I wasn't in the mood like I said.
I looked everywhere realizing she didn't leave the hotel with a purse so-

"Um hi."

My heart completely stopped like I was frozen in time for an eternity. I really didn't want to turn around to find a ghost or an imaginary Jacob behind me. I couldn't just stay there and not find out either.

I turned slowly to him.
Of all people him.

"What the hell are you doing here."I snarled.

"Carmen here me out."he started.

"No you here me out-"

"Carmen.Shut up for this one time okay!"he yelled making me shook because he's never shut me up not once until now.Is it bad in slightly turned on by the dominance he's demanding in the tone he used?Not to mention the new haircut he got that is seriously making me want to devour those luscious lips I've craved for months. I bite my lip but snapped out of it when I realized who the hell I am.I'm Carmen damnit!

"I'm sorry I never stopped loving you from the moment I left. I'm sorry it took me over a year to realize I'm never going to get another you. I'm never going to feel completely happy unless I know I'm with you.Seriously,It feels like something's missing without you in my heart and that might sound cliché but it's true.I've never met anyone as strong,loving and witty as you.Every damn day I've been waking up and going to bed thinking and dreaming about you and I should have come back to you sooner but I was afraid you'd moved on and if-"

"Stop there. I'm still single and it's staying that way okay."I sassed.

"Why.Why stand here and pretend you don't love me!"

"Because I don't!"I yelled.

"Your lying!"

"How would you know!"

"I know because I know you!You wrinkle your nose when you lie.When your upset your face turns pink you bawl your fist up ready to kill anyone who crosses you."

I unbawled my fist calming down.

"Why Jacob.Why now."my voice cracked feeling a breeze hit own faces creating a swirl of cherry blossoms into the sunset.

"Because I want to be there with you in this next chapter of own lives.I love you and I'm not going anywhere without you."his lips pressed against mine passionately locked like our very first kiss.Like on cue in a movie the cherry blossoms swirled around us as romantic music played from the reception.Truthfully it was more than I could ever ask for,my happily ever after.I never knew why I ever questioned why I wanted a life without love.At that moment I realized I was Carmen,Carmen who loved Jacob and Carmen who knows what it feels like to be in love.Trust me I've learned to stop trying to fight him, forgive him and finally love him.

The End

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