Senpai Noticed Me (Mori x reader)

Chapter 19

Recap:

"I have no good explanation for what happened, since I don't even know what happened...But I am going to tell you what I have gathered from the incident"

And he did, but it was nothing I had expected.

~~~~~

Mori took a deep breath and sighed.

"I should have told you," he started "about the problem, but I didn't because I didn't want to hurt you" he said. I nodded for him to continue.

"It was set up" he waited for my response.

But how do I respond to that?

"Set up...how?"

"If you think I set it up, that's wrong," he shook his head "it was between both my family and hers, but I didn't want to go through with it" he looked disappointed in himself.

"But you did" I almost whispered.

"Yes and from what I have discovered, her family has higher power over ours I suppose" he said.

"And yet this whole time you couldn't tell me??" my anger started to grow.

How could he not even trust me with something as simple as this when I have trusted him with everything.

"I thought it was for the best" he stated calmly.

"For the best? For you? or for me?"

Silence.

"For both of us" he said.

"And this is where it got us!" I almost found it humorous that we were arguing like this only because we were only teenagers, young and dumb teenagers clearly.

I felt like crying and screaming but wanting all of this to be over so I could be back in his arms and going to the host club where my friends are.

To be able to say he was mine and that he was my umbrella in the rain (as cheesy as it sounds).

"I don't want to keep arguing like this," I breathed heavily, like my chest was physically collapsing on itself and crushing my lungs.

"If this happened once then it could happen again, and you wanting 'the best' for me...you probably won't tell me about it again" My eyes stayed concentrated on the ground.

"And I certainly don't want to have to dig into something like this for me to find out in a way that" I took a second to finish "would just break me."

I wasn't aware of what I said next but it stunned us both.

"Maybe..." I bit my lip and held back the tears "Maybe we just weren't meant to be together Mori"

My body trembled and I was trying so hard to keep myself together.

"So..." he cleared his throat but that did nothing to his next sentence as his voice still cracked "You want to end this? If it will make you happy...the choice is yours" his body shifted as he rocked on his feet.

No you big idiot, say something else... ANYTHING ELSE.

"Goodbye Mori" my lower lip trembled and tears finally broke loose. He didn't say a single thing, utter a single word and so in a slightly hyperventilating and crying mess, I ran up the stairs to my bedroom and burrowed myself in my blankets. I heard the soft noise the door made as Mori shut it behind him. I could hear the limo door shut and the hum of the vehicle speed away, my first love speed away.

I cried, and cried. Now that I had actually broke it off with him, I realized that it hurt so much worse.

Stupid of me for thinking that it would actually help how I felt.