Lemme Use You To Love You ~ Halren

(3): To Be Loved

I'm tired of waking up alone. I can still feel the coolness of her skin. I hate that after she's had me, she leaves. It isn't like she loved me anyway. I sit up in bed, wiping sleep from my eyes. I reach for my phone, but its not on the night stand. I furrow my eyebrows and snap my fingers. Kitchen. I peel the sheets off of my body and get out of bed.

I go into the kitchen where the device was. I pick up my phone and I have 3 missed calls and 5 messages from my brother.

-Ash? Wtfya? Sent at 1:47pm
-We ain c yo car at ur apartment nd I know you ain w Mel Sent at 2:12pm
-U were supposed  2 b here over two hours ago! Sent at 2:12pm
-Ma over here poppin' blood vessels and shit...Sent at 2:12pm
-Can u bring me some M&Ms? Sent at 2:32pm

To be the eldest, Abel is very childish. I laugh and shake my head.

-I'm home. Mel has my car until Friday. I'll call her nd I should b there in like an hour. Sent at 2:51pm

I go back into my room, getting things for a shower. I grab my towel and some clean underwear when he texts again.

-OK. I told Ma and she like "If dat li'l girl don't c'mon!" Sent at 2:55pm

Sent at 2:56pm-Why she like that? Tf goin' on there?

-Right? And idk... Sent at 2:57pm

Sent at 3:01pm-Ugh. Aigh, imma shower so
ttyl

-Ight, sis Sent at 3:02pm

God, what could my mom possible want? Don't get me wrong, I love her, but that lady has been causing me hell for the longest.  Every since I came out as bisexual, she's been a bitch to me. Glad I have my brothers, though.

Abel, Sevian, and Dante are the only people in my family, besides my dad, who couldn't care less what I like as long as I'm happy. They don't know about Lauren though. I don't plan to tell them either; only if we get together, which I doubt. I take a quick shower, washing any evidence of sex on my skin. I seriously gotta have more self-respect. I let her use me then leave me. It's the closest I can get to her. Sad, I know, but one thing about her is that she's good at getting what she wants.

I turn the water off once it started to get cooler. I towel dry my hair, wrap myself and look in the foggy mirror. I look like shit. I have bags under my eyes, my neck has a few marks on the side, and my skin was a little paler than usual. I sigh, picking up my phone to call my best friend.

-Hello?

-Hey, Melz

-Hey, Ash! I was literally gonna like kill you last night. You can't do that to me.

-*laughs* I'm sorry, Mel. I got bored and-

-And Lauren looked like a snack, yeah? *laughs*

-Shut up, but I need you to bring my car. I have to go to my parents' house.

-OK, why though?

-I dunno. But Ma rushing me. I just got off of the phone with Abel and she's livid.

-Ugh, well, I'll be there in like 10 minutes. I'm at McDonald's. You want anything?