Lemme Use You To Love You ~ Halren

(14): Now Or Never

"She fucking broke me, Ashley and she was so good at it. She was the perfect sin; a breeze in Hell. She brought out my fears that I buried deep down...everything that I build, she destroyed in a matter of a month."

Ashley's lips remain a thin line as I continue with hot tears flowing down my cheeks. "I loved her, Ashley. I was in love with her. She was so good to me. Then I walk in on her knuckles deep in my best friend."

I stand up, pacing. The memory of what happened that night rushing through my head. "I-I-I let it happen! I should've listened to Ally, hell, her two sisters warned me. HER SISTERS!! Did I fucking listen?! No, because I'm dumb as shit and now I trying to release my guilt and hate on you."

At this point, I don't care. I've kept it in for so fucking long. "What happened, Lauren?" She asks in a soft, almost invisible whisper. I take a deep breath.

"A little over a year ago, I was the happiest girl ever," I smile slightly.

Flashback

It was 3:12pm on April 10th 2014. I sat on our shared bed, having a phone conversation with my best friend. She since moved from Miami and now lives in Orlando. It's crazy because she's in an online relationship with my girlfriend's sister, Camila.

We've been talking about them, but I left out how I actually know the younger girl. I wanna surprise her when she gets here.

It's been so long since I've seen her in person, and I miss her.

"Yeah, then he tried it, ooh, he tried it! Like, this bitch over here saying Beyonce is overrated and I'm like, 'Bitch, your hair stopped growing in the second grade. Get up out mah shit, hoe!"

I laugh, "Did that really happen?"

*silence*

"Mani?"

"...Actually he was nice and the girl said Beyonce overrated... But that he loves Lemonade."

I shake my head, mentally slapping myself since she can't see me. "Ya big dumb!" I laugh.

"Hush, hoe!"

My laughing died down, "When are you coming to Miami?"

Shuffling was heard on the other side, "Next Thursday, probably. My money coming in this week so we can hang out, mama."

"Oh, OK, that's cool."

"Yeah. Ooh! Tell me now about this girl you're with!"

I chuckle, "Well, we just moved in together like a month ago and I've been busy with work and-,"

"Lauren, honey. You're only 18 what are you doing?"

"I know, but- oh, shit, she's here and she has groceries. I'll call you back, Normani, OK?"

"Yeah, yeah. I'll talk to you later. Love ya, bitch."

I chuckle, "Love you, too, bitch. Muah!"

We hang up. I put my phone on the charger, getting up from the bed. When I look up at the door, my heart nearly stopped. I jump back, "Babe, what the fuck?!" Her arms were crossed over her 'Fuck You, Pay Me' T-shirt. Her snapback turned backwards. "Who was that?" I smooth my hand over her tense forearm.

"My best friend. She's in Orlando and she's visiting soon." She raises her eyebrows before nodding , "OK, is she staying?" I look around, "We have that pull out couch she can sleep on." She shrugs, "A'ight, I don't wanna have to cut a bitch."