What About Us

SUDDEN | FORTY

[2 Months Later]

Opening the door of our apartment, snow sticking to my heels I halt in my tracks. The house is dim and I don't hear any animated voices, no crying, no smell of dirty diapers. It must be a miracle! That's when I look down to see a path or roses following to the dining room,  but there is an outline of  candles following the red and white roses. I shut the door behind me and take off my shoes so I won't track any snow and I make my way down the path, "Tobias?" I call out confused and that's where I see him standing there right by the table that has candles and flowers on it. A little tray sits in the middle of the table, a bottle of wine on each side. On the tray are chocolate covered strawberries, fruit, cupcakes and other little snacks for the both of us, "What is this? Where are the kids?" I question. 

These past 2 months have been a struggle for me, and therapy has helped me so much. I work now, that's where I just came from, and it has given me a lot of time to get back to work and think. I had a little outburst a couple of weeks ago, Tobias and I were talking about our wedding plans and colors since it is in about 2 months or so, and I got overwhelmed and just blanked out. I didn't mean to yell at him and he was pretty upset but we got past it. I haven't been the most vibrant one around, I can say that this last baby has really put a wear down  on my life. I've tried to spend more time with Aiden and come around to know that I won't ruin his life and try and be more in his life. 

"This is just for us, the kids are with your parents." He stepped forward to me and tears fill my eyes. Since all hell broke loose he hasn't really showed me he loves me and everyday I still question if he does. I know that materialistic things can show love for different people, I don't need them but I felt that he could put a little thought into our relationship. I wanted to get away from our family and friends to just think about us because I felt that it was really going to help me and feel better about myself, "Why are you crying?" He places his hands on my shoulder. 

I sniffle and dab under my eye with my finger, "I thought you stopped loving me." I admit, "We never go on dates anymore, I thought you were getting bored with me and tired of my mood swings." 

"Tris," He starts and wipes under my left eye, "I would never stop loving you. I still ask myself how I got lucky everyday. I know that what we're dealing with is because you carried my beautiful son and my other two spontaneous and beautiful baby girls. It's the most precious thing a woman can do, make a man a father. So, I will make sure that you're as content as you can be. Never think that okay?" He places his forehead against mines. 

I stand on the tip of my toes and kiss him on the lips, wrapping my arms around his neck. We're finally in the clear for sex and I cannot wait for that intimate and physical connection I can get with my soon-to-be husband. He pulls away from me and I pout, "Sit down." He slides off my jacket and I am left in my work clothes, slacks and a long sleeve shirt. I sit down in the chair and he pours us some wine, "We have a lot to talk about." He grabs my hands and my heart starts beating. 

We talk for about an hour, I can tell that he is buttering me up for something and I don't know what it could be, "Tobias, tell me what's on your mind." I squeeze his hands. After feeding me some delicious snacks and talking around the real situation, I am ready to know. 

He takes a deep breath and stares into my eyes, "Let's get married today." I splutter at him, totally confused, "I can't wait any longer, I want us to make an official family. This will seal us together and you said you wanted a small wedding anyways." I think long and hard, Tobias wants to marry now with no type of rehearsal or help from others.

"Tobias, I don't have my dress. . . shoes, I can't get my hair and makeup done in time. Right now?" I question looking at him and I see the vibrant look in his eyes. He  looks like a kid with a new toy which actually lightens my mood and I giggle. 

"Right now baby." He squeezes my hand, "It's not too late, we can sign the papers at the courthouse tonight. I have our friends gathering stuff now." He looks down at his phone typing a few things, "Christina is gonna come here and do your hair and makeup, with Shauna. Marlene and Lynn are handling things where we're going to get married at with decorations. The guys are dealing with guests and getting the pastor at such a late time, and your parents are cooking for the reception at their house. They have been cooking all day." 

I nod my head, "Let's get married!" 

He smiles and leans over the table and we share a sensuous kiss, savoring each other. Nervousness and happiness both course through my veins as we  continue to kiss passionately, "So you just knew I was going to say yes?" I question him when I pull away from him, "Because everything seems already together." 

"Something like that. If you didn't I could swoon my lovely wife into saying yes." I roll my eyes lightly hitting him on his shoulder, "You're an ass." I smile again and kiss him again, tonight I don't know if its the mixed emotions but he is totally irresistible tonight and I can not stop placing my lips on his. Of course, there are frantic knocks at the door. 

We both stand up and start to walk to the door, "Where are we getting married at anyways?" 

"That's for me to know and you to find out." He kisses my cheek and opens the door. Christina and Marlene are both standing at the door looking distraught. Marlene holds a black garment bag high up while Christina holds up a really big makeup bag. 

"No time for you two to be all lovey-dovey! We have an hour and 30 minutes to get you ready and for you to get going!" Christina grabs Tobias' arm and pushes him back in the house, "Get your stuff and go! We need everything moving!" Tobias and I both stare at her for a second until she screams, "No!" And that's when we get the stepping.