Not All The Way
By: Silverfeather
Looking at her soft curved lips,
Nervousness fluttering in my chest,
My parents words pounding in my brain that I shouldn't be doing what I was doing,
Our lips becoming interconnected like clockwork electricity sparking between us,
That moment I knew I wanted her to be my first,
Disregarding everything my parents had said to me early that morning,
The room slowly warming as we got lost in the moment almost unable to find our way back,
Her touch as soft as a kitten's fur,
Quietly I asked, "How are you feeling?"
Quickly she replied with a playful smile tickling her lips, "Denfinetly not suicidal."
Becoming light hearted my worries melting away like ice on a warm spring day,
Despite the quiet room my mind screamed many thoughts and questions,
Running my fingers threw her long black bangs swooping them trying to tuck them behind her ears kissing her passionately,
"You should smile more."
Letting a smile cover my face I replied, "I just always forget to."
Her comforting scent drifting around me,
Glancing at the clock it screamed 12:57,
Energy sucking the sleepiness from my bloodstream,
Wrapping my arms over the back of her neck for a few seconds feeling time almost. Stop.
Looking into her eyes her face holding a hint of seriousness as she shifted a little, "What would your parents think?"
Shrugging I shook my head, "It doesn't matter what they think."
A little fear sparked to life in my chest at her words,
A little guilt as I remembered the only secret I was keeping from her,
Once again it melted away as she intertwined our lips,
Taking in a deep breath I listened to her calming words, "I love you."
I replied with a simple heartfelt, "I love you too."
"No you don't."
Chuckling a little I played a little with her bangs whispering, "Is that our new thing?"
Slowly she nodded smiling a little, "Yeah."
Pushing all the thoughts away letting it melt into nothing my brain almost completely clear,
Struggling to tuck her loose hair behind her ears as it tickled my face as she whispered, "You fail."
Giving up I let her do it herself feeling a little embarrassment hiding behind my awkward smile,
The same thought rushing through my head....How did I get so lucky?
A small shot of fear in me as I thought of the pervious people,
The one who hurt my brother, the one who moved, the one who sexually assaulted me, the one who cheated on me.
The sound of her breathing echoed,
Her body slowly moved like a turtle as
I cuddled up to her,
Trying to keep her body close to mine and warm,
Closing my heavy hazel eyes,
Feeling her body slowly rise and fall in slow rhythm,
Relaxing every muscle in both of our bodies,
We drifted off in unison.
