Learning To Feel Again

Chapter 16

2 months later

I wake up in my queen-sized bed and smile. After I left that night, I went back twice. Once to get my stuff for my new apartment. And the second time to say bye to my father. Luckily both of them were not there during the process. That night when I got to Haley's I broke down. I cried the whole night and she just held me and that was all I needed. She didn't ask what was wrong and I didn't tell her.

I get up and walk into the bathroom that is attached to my room and strip from my clothes. I'm officially three months pregnant and I have a small bump. This baby has changed a lot for me already. My breast are bigger- and more sensitive- I pee a lot, I have the weirdest cravings at the weirdest times, and thankfully not a lot of morning sickness. 

I place my hands on my stomach and smile. There is a life inside of me. He/ she is a part of me and I don't regret any of it. I'm already attached to the little bean. I talk to with them every night and it keeps me sane. I even look at the ultrasound picture and can't help but smile. 

I haven't heard from Asher at all since he broke up with me. I wish he knew the truth. A tear slips once again. I kept the locket he gave me, but I never wear it. It stays hidden in one of my drawers. 

Today is the day I tell Haley and Lucas that I'm pregnant. Neither of them has seen me since a month ago and I'm excited to surprise them with my bump. I'm just hoping that neither of them will ask about the father because that is still a sensitive subject. I cry every time I think about that. 

I get into the shower and prepare myself for lunch. I wash each crevice of my body until I'm fully clean. I wash my hair with mint scented shampoo and conditioner. When I finish, I wrap myself in a towel and dry off. 

I throw on a D cup bra, yep I'm a D now, and some random thong. I then put on my tight fit gray dress that shows off my bump. I match it with brown boots and a brown purse. I dry and put my hair in loose curls and leave my face completely natural. 

I grab my leather jacket and head out of the house and to the dinner. 

I park next to Haley's car and get out. I take a deep breath and cover my belly with the jacket. I wanna see their faces when they see the bump. I head into the dinner and notice my two best friends sitting a booth. Lucas notices me first and waves and Haley mimics. 

"Hey babe" Haley gives me a hug.

"Hey guys" I give Lucas a smile. "I need y'all to sit and be quite" I laugh. 

Haley sits down and smiles at me while Lucas raises an eyebrow. I slowly open my jacket keeping my eyes on their faces and I'm glad I did. Haley smiles very wide and Lucas grins. "I'm pregnant" I laugh as Haley and Lucas both stand up. They wrap me in a hug and tell me congrats. 

"Thanks" I wipe a non-existent tear. Stupid hormones. 

"How far along are you?" Lucas asks

"Only three months or so" I place a hand on my belly.

"That is amazing!" Haley squeals. "We have some good news too" Haley grabs Lucas' hand and I already know what she is gonna say. "We're dating!" 

"I knew it would happen" I smile at the two of them. "When?"

"He finally asked me out two weeks ago" she giggles at the memory. 

"But back to you" Lucas says. "Does Asher know? I mean is it his?"

I lower my head as I think of a way to tell them. As I begin to speak the bell on the front door rings and we all look over there. I don't know what to do. I was frozen in my seat. I could barely breathe at the image in front of me. Asher had his arm around some red head and they were laughing.