I'll never do it again

Untitled Part 28

Chapter twenty eight

\AN yes I'm aware these are getting annoying I just wanted to say that I'd originally intended the fic to end by this chapter but this is not the end and I'll probably end up with thirty something chapters instead/

Frank's p.o.v

Gee why didn't you call me or something ? I could've helped I said panicked the amount of blood on the floor alone was concerning and then there was pill bottles and alcohol I the mix and vomit on the floor I stood up to get a towel and attempt to clean up some I nearly had the blood of the floor when gee mumbled something unintelligible into the toilet bowl what? I asked turning to them and putting the towel in the sink I said I'm okay Frank they said. Gee! I yelled making them jump don't bullshit me like that you need help I don't know if I should even be trying to handle this without a hospital or 911 or-That's when they started crying. I stopped talking and sat next to them so I could hold them I'm such a failure they sobbed to me I can't even drink anymore I can't keep my wrists clean I can't be a normal heterosexual cis gendered person I can't recognize abuse before it's too late I can't let the most important person in my world touch me without warning I can't stay off pills I'm just such a fucking failure they sobbed into my chest I hugged them gee it's okay to not be okay you're not a failure for being fucked up I'm fucked up too and I'm not a failure in your eyes am I ? And a lot of people don't recognize abuse it's hard to see poeple hide it well and you could drink if you paced yourself although not sure you should

And yea youre wrists aren't clean but mine aren't either I have scars too and being normal is bullshit so don't even try and you can stay off pills you just need help come on we've gotta get you cleaned up can you stand? I said pulling myself up and reaching for their hand I pulled them up with me I'm gonna take your cloths off and you're gonna sit in the shower while I get new bandages and Mikey-they stopped me panicking about how Mikey wouldn't understand and didn't need to know. Gee stop you nearly died last night mikeys finding out one way or another and I need help getting this room properly clean and getting rid off the bloody cloths I said taking their shirt off they almost cried when it brushed their wrists and I almost cried when I took the bandages off their wrists there were so many cuts and they were so deep I was pretty sure half of them needed stitches and they were lucky not to hit a vein I finished un bandaging them and removing their cloths down to their underwear I picked them up which was easier then I expected as they were strangely light and fragile in my arms and placed them into the tub turning the shower on I'll be back in a second gee please don't do any thing without me he nodded still pale I ran down the stairs and got Mikey explaining what had happened in a short panicked version as we headed up the stairs Mikey got to the bathroom before I did stopping to take in the sight of his siblings blood and vomit covering an entire room. Gee why?!?

Why would you do that I love you why would you leave me here he said panicking to gee. B-because you don't want me Mikey I'm broken I'm gender fluid and pansexual and I'm dating frank and I'm an alcoholic and I take pills and I cut and you just don't want me Mikey I'm a mess they said to Mikey curling up into the shower their cuts were still bleeding. gee! Of course I want you fuck it I need you! Who else is gonna be there at three am when I have a panic attack or when I go through a break up and why would I be mad that you're dating frank?! I knew already I saw you kiss him remember and I'm gay! How do you forget something like that? And yea I'm a little pissed that you were drinking and taking pills but only because you didn't ask for help when you obviously needed it I-I fuck! Gee I need you don't ever do this again! Mikey finished his panicked ramble