addict in the clouds (joshler) | ✔️

Whirlwind Of Emotions

a.n // i know i'm gonna be getting a lot of backlash for this chapter. just prepare for mania.

andy, brendon, joe, jon, josh, pete, ryan, and spencer all became friends. josh decided he didn't feel like joining the band, and they hung out on the tour.

"okay, brendon, truth or dare?" joe asked, sitting on the floor of the tour bus with the rest of the gang.
"dare." the nineteen year old said confidently. joe thought for a minute, and then responded, "i dare you to call up your ex, and tell them that  you want them back."

brendon's face went pale, but he did so, resulting in an awkward conversation that had everyone else dying of laughter.
"wanna act cocky? okay. ryan, truth or dare?"

"truth."

"how would you react to this?" brendon leaned forward, and kissed ryan on the lips, clearly letting a little things through. ryan gasped. "i'll answer that question when we're alone.", and pulled brendon to a different room. everyone watched in shock, until awkwardly, jon said, "i guess i'll go. josh, truth or dare?"

"as long as you don't make out with me, i'm gonna go with truth." josh responded.

"your friend, tyler joseph..." tyler started paying more attention.
"he seemed really important to you, which, i get, of course, but unbelievably important. do you ever think you'll get over his death?"

josh sighed sadly. "i honestly don't know. tyler was, like you said, really important to me. i've known him since we were kids, and he was always so sweet to everyone. a few years ago, i started get extremely depressed, and once even tried to commit suicide. but at that exact time, tyler called me and asked if i wanted to go see mean girls with him. he literally saved my life.

"and, not only that, but i've been attracted to girls my whole life. as soon as i was eleven, and started thinking for myself instead of my parents thinking for me, i knew that i liked tyler more than a friend, he made my discover my bisexuality. i was planning on telling him on his birthday, but he died before then."

tyler didn't even know what to think. josh was amazing, by far, but tyler was definitely straight. and he used to have a girlfriend.
but maybe my task is that i have to find him someone?

"okay. truth or dare, pete?"

tyler leaned by the side of the bus, paying no attention to what was going on, until they had all gone to sleep, and josh just walked out after making sure everyone else was asleep. tyler followed him.

josh stood outside, and looked around. they were parked in the parking lot of an old diner, seeming to be in the middle of nowhere, but a lot of cars passed by. he walked to the edge of the lot, and looked at the headlights zooming past him, and the taillights retreating. josh looked behind him, to see nobody, which he took as a good sign, as he ran four feet onto the road, right as an eighteen-wheeler shows up.

this can't be happening, this can't be happening this can't be happening this can't be happening this can't

tyler finally came to his senses, and the truck was coming fast. josh seemed to not be scared at all. he panicked, and before he could react, as the truck came by, a figure ran up, and pushed josh to the other side, where no cars were coming in at the moment. the figure quickly saved himself, and picked  up the shivering and angry 5"5 teen, bringing him to the grass on the other side.

you didn't seem to be doing anything, ty heard patrick behind him, so i brought in reinforcements by shaking him awake and whispering in his ear to look out onto the street.
that's when josh's savior looked back the way of the tour bus, and tyler saw unwashed smudges of eyeliner below the lower lashes.