The Devil's One and Only Love ★

FiftySeven-I'll miss you

Chapter Fifty Seven

when life was simple. i never needed anyone to make me happy then i met you. i had you and you are the best thing that ever happened to me. you are my life. you're the only thing i have to survive. you're the only one who's keeping me sane. at times when i dont have anyone. i had you.

have you ever thought how i've been when you left ? or how i will be when i lose you, Alexis? or how am i going to be when you're gone?

i dont know how to live without you Alexis. you forgot to teach me how to survive life without you.

i can do everything, Baby. i can be everything. i can handle anyything. but not this one. not losing you...

life is nothing without you. i am nothing without you.

i'll trade everything. anything just to have you back.

and i dont wanna say goodbye.

and i cant say goodbye. i'm not saying goodbye,

***

2 years later.

"Hi Babe." i said softly as i put the flowers above her grave.

"Its been two years now. how's heaven? have you been watching me from there?" i smiled softly as i try to fight the tears from my eyes.

i sat there and touched her tombstone softly.

"You must be very disappointed with me, Baby. i'm a mess." i whispered softly as i wipe the tears on my eyes. "i'm broken man without you." my voice broke. i covered my face with my hands and started crying like a child.

"its been a while but its still here. its always been here for the past two years. hanggang ngayon, Alexis. masakit pa rin. hindi pa rin nawawala." pinunasan ko yung mukha kong basa na ng luha.

it was never been the same without, Baby. so i need you back. i really need you back.

padapa akong humiga sa puntod nya saka umiyak.

dalawang taon na pero masakit pa rin, Alexis. sobrang sakit pa rin.

na para bang kahapon lang nangyari. nung niyakap nya ko para itakip yung sarili nya sakin. para saluhin yung bala na para sakin.

Nabaril ni Jace si Valdez at nakakulong na sila hanggang ngayon. okay na lahat.

bukod sakin. ako nalang ang hindi okay. at kailanman hindi na ko magiging okay.

gusto ko nang mamatay. gusto ko nalang mamatay.

mamamatay lang ako ng wala sya bakit pa ba ako nabubuhay?

kinuha ko yung baril sa paa ko saka tinutok sa ulo ko. "I'll see you now, babe."

pinindot ko yung gatilyo.

***

"Steven, Steveen." nagising nalang ako nung may yumuyugyog sakin sa balikat. napadilat ako. si Celine yung nakita ko.

"nasa room na sya." nakangiting sabi niya. inikot ko yung mata ko. nasa hospital pa kami.

napatingin ako sa suot ko. eto pa rin yung suot ko nung nagpunta ako kay Valdez.

PANAGINIP LANG LAHAT!

napatayo agad ako. "Asan na sya?!"

"Nasa kwarto na sya. Hindi ka namin magising kasi ang sarap ng tulog mo. binatayan ka nalang ng mga tao mo. She's okay." ngumiti sya saka niyakap ako. "I miss you Steven."