OUT OF MIND / MYG.

FIFTEEN

"you scared me the other day. i didn't know what i did wrong."

yoongi fills the silence.

"it wasn't you. it was me."

i'm sad.

depressed.

i thought seeing yoongi would mend my broken pieces together.

but i just feel more broken for reasons unknown.

"i'm just glad you're okay. i didn't want to lose a friend."

he smirks.

and just like that.

a light seems to be switched.

i feel better.

because he's my friend.

"you were serious about being my friend?"

i question, unsure.

"of course. you're something else, areum."

i smile now.

big.

and bright.

"so how long have you been in here?"

yoongi gestures to the ward.

i shrug.

"i used to live in a juvenile facility but when i turned sixteen, they moved me here."

he nodded.

"eunbi's been here for seven months now. doctors advised she stay longer after her od. my parents are done with her, to be honest."

his tone seemed a little agitated.

"why did you just now start visiting her? i don't remember seeing you before."

he looks sorrowful.

"i used to be scared of my sister. it's horrible to say, but it was true. she'd scare me when she'd have a breakdown. i always felt helpless when i was around her."

we'd been playing chess while talking.

yoongi captured my queen.

"when my parents admitted her, i was relieved. i could finally live a normal life, right? but it wasn't like that. i missed her so much. i was just afraid she'd not want to see me."

"it was selfish of me to assume. it took me seven months to work up the courage to finally visit her. it had been a long time since i'd seen her so happy."

i could have sworn i saw a tear glide down his porcelin skin.

"i made a promise to always visit her when i could."

"you're a great brother."

i murmured.

"thank you. it means a lot."

i smiled.

"of course. that's what friends are for!"

i'm energized now.

he smiles.

"i like it when you're smiling, areum. you should do it more often."

and so i do.

for him.