OUT OF MIND / MYG.

THIRTY

"it's all your fault!"

i screamed when dr. choi came into my view.

i was livid.

he had taken minji away from me.

he didn't even let me say goodbye.

"areum, what's wrong?"

he asked simply, turning away from his salad.

i huffed, annoyed.

he had the audacity.

"you took her aw-away and i didn't e-even get to s-say goodbye."

a few tears escaped but i was unusually keeping myself from breaking down.

i really didn't want to go back to suicide watch.

"minji didn't need to be here anymore. her mother wanted her home as soon as possible. you hadn't been released yet, i'm sorry."

my eyes darted around.

"i just needed five minutes to say goodbye. she's g-going to forget about me. s-she was my only friend other than nari and maybe chaeyoung. everybody else hates me."

emotion clouded my tone.

i was refusing to let it out.

"areum."

dr. choi warned, but i ignored him.

"it's true! they hate me b-because they believe i did it. but i didn't and i don't know how m-many times i'm going to have to s-say that."

dr. choi sighed.

"nari isn't real, areum."

i shook my head.

no matter how many times i was told that, i couldn't believe it.

she was too real to me.

i'd seen her too many times.

everybody else just was lying.

they didn't want to believe she was really real.

because she was the monster.

i don't like your tone.

well, i don't care.

nari, you're ruining everything for me.

you always have.

you're such an ungrateful brat.

you deserve everything coming your way.

you don't mean that.

nari, what are you going to do?

but she didn't answer me.

she just laughed in my face.

"look what you've done! nari's back."