OUT OF MIND / MYG.

TWENTY TWO

suicide watch absolutely sucks.

you aren't allowed visitors.

you can't go to the common room.

you are seperated in another wing of the hospital.

and worst of all,

you're forced to attend group therapy.

which i hate

no

dislike.

i dislike group.

having to share my feelings.

so i despise dr. choi right now.

i want him to go away.

i slouch in my chair.

it's uncomfortable.

dr. choi is listening to another patient,

hyejin.

she just arrived here a few days ago.

you can smell the fresh blood.

she managed to already land herself in watch.

impressive.

it took me six days before i had a breakdown.

and when you freak out,

you're immediately sent to mandatory suicide watch for three days.

sometimes longer.

i've stayed for two weeks once.

i hated that medicine.

nari wouldn't stop bothering me.

i attempted my life several times.

and then i received the sleeves.

it was my first time.

and i hated

no

disliked it.

they are itchy.

and weigh my arms down.

overall, it was a horrible experience.

so i don't want to be here.

i imagine no one does.

the people who self-check themselves into the ward are definitely of another breed.

but i haven't been exposed to the outside world since i was twelve years old.

so i don't remember how hard it is to pretend to be normal surrounded by judgemental eyes.

and at this rate,