OUT OF MIND / MYG.

THIRTEEN

i was finally released from suicide watch.

i hate

no

dislike being on watch.

the nurses in there are mean to me.

i'm a regular.

they don't like that.

i'm so insecure.

i feel so many eyes burning into my back.

i'm scared.

i want to cry.

no, don't cry.

okay, i won't.

good.

my head hurts.

i search for minji in the common room.

i need a friend.

i doubt yoongi is going to want me after our last encounter.

"minji!"

i bounce over to where she is sitting.

chaeyoung is there too.

but i ignore her.

she doesn't like me.

"have you finally decided not to kill yourself? pathetic."

chae mutters as i sit beside minji.

"chae!"

minji warns.

i bristle with anger.

no one likes me.

"how are you doing?"

minji asks me.

i break my glare from chae and immediately soften at minji.

"i feel better. dr. choi says that nari should stay away."

minji nods.

"that's really good, areum."

i sit up prouder after being complimented by minji.

"what about you? are you being released soon?"

minji was supposed to be a patient for only three months or until her doctor cleared her fit to return home.

there had been a few setbacks but minji seemed hopeful in that she would go home soon.

i was saddened in losing my only friend but i was happy for her.

she deserved to get out of this place.

"by the way, eunbi's brother came looking for you."

minji added and i looked up shocked.

"what!?"

"yeah, he came yesterday asking where you were. we told him that you were on suicide watch meaning you couldn't have visitors. that you should be released in a few days."

minji explained.

my face flushed and i gulped.

yoongi was asking about me.

even after i freaked out in front of him.

it wasn't visiting hours yet.

but i was going to wait for him.

i had to apologize.

big time.

but he didn't hate

no

dislike me.

it was a start.

so i waited.