The girl they will never have

40.

I opened my eyes lazily to see Euna shaking me and shouting "get uppp". I have no interest in going to college today because I am too sleepy and also my whole body pains due to work yesterday. I know I don't work but I help dad in his work. So literally,all I want now is a hot water tub and for me to pass out in the tub itself. A massage could help too but let's face it,I'm not gonna get either of my desires fulfilled.

"I'm not coming to college today. Sorry for making you late but I don't want to go. I feel sick."

I say Euna and raise my comforter higher so that the lights don't steal away my sleep. The bed looks so warm that I could stay in here all day.

"I knew you wouldn't want to come if you were not having your breakfast already so I messaged Yeon about it. He said that you had an test today that's important and you cannot miss it."

Hearing this,I woke up like the bed was electrocuted and stared at Euna,trying to remember if I really had an important test today. Ofcourse I have it today,seeing how I slept yesterday while revising the topics.

I ran to the bathroom without saying anything to Euna. While brushing my teeth and also being in the shower at the same time,I shouted at Euna asking her for the time.

"Fifteen more minutes for the class to start."

That was too late. Even if I managed to get ready within five minutes,it would take ten minutes to reach my college. But that's fine because like always,I will be late and I don't like going early for test and have discussions or whatever. The negative energy that others radiate make me want to hit them really bad. So I stay away from my classmates before and after tests. You see,I'm too positive. In everything and anything.

You shouldn't talk all that crap before test that you would fail or you didn't study. If anything,just prepare for it when you still have time. If the tests too tough then what's the big deal? You either pass or you fail. Nothing more. After you are done with test,you shouldn't speak of things like how you had less time or start making assumptions. For a fact,people who say that their test didn't go well,they somehow turn out scoring above 80%. They are just too insecure that if they say they did well,then someone would steal their grades or something.

After my quick shower of two minutes,I ran to my closet and wore the first thing I could lay my hands on. Euna sat playing games on my desktop,completely aware of my multitasking skills.

"Your bag is arranged. You only have to dress up and run down with your loafers." She said laughing at the last part.

We three had each other's class schedules so it was a given that Euna would just arrange my bag seeing it on her phone. I wore a blue buttoned shirt without caring to open the buttons. I slid it easily upon my head. I didn't give much look to this new and comfortable shirt and ran down with my loafers,shouting Euna that I'm ready.

Grabbing a pancake which already had cream and blueberries neatly placed, I rolled it and tightened with some tissues. Euna was already out the door and I hastily wore my loafers. With my breakfast roll in one hand and backpack slung,I had my notes for today's test in other hand to have a quick revision.

I was used to the speeding bike rides. Keeping my head a bit low and supporting it on Euna's back,I started eating my breakfast and revising everything I could.

Not even bothering on how I survived the ride with both of my hands occupied,I shouted a bye and ran. I could hear her shouting something but I ran away. Knowing that I would be about two minutes late,I slowed down near my classroom and walked slow,with my uneven breathing.