His Diary || Taekook

Chapter 8

Taehyung's POV

9/5/17

Hey diary!! It's your gay piece of shit Jungkook! I'm actually doing pretty well, today was good. Taehyung and I hung out all day! I think I'm starting to like him more.

Actually I think I love him. I've always loved him.

I smiled sadly to myself. I love you too, Jungkook. Always have, always will.

He's such a good person and he cares about me. He is literally an angel. I wish I could be with him all the time. I've been starting to ignore the abuse. All the pain and sadness disappear when I think about Taehyung or when I'm near him. Maybe things are going to get better for me.

Now what I'm wondering is...should I tell Taehyung how I feel?

See, this could go two ways.

I turned to the fifteenth page to see Jungkook's thoughts on confessing.

The first way could be good. I could tell him and he might feel the same. And we could be a couple. But this is highly impossible.

You'd be really surprised, Kook. 

The way it would most likely go down is he would reject my feelings and I would ruin our friendship.

I wouldn't have done that to you. Even if you confessed to me, I would never reject you in a harsh way. I think even if I hadn't felt the same, we could have still been friends.

And I will get hurt.

Maybe it's best if I keep this to myself. Keep my love hidden.

Yes. That is the right decision. I will do that.

I'm going to sleep now diary. Bye!!!!

"No." I said, starting to breakdown. "No. No! NO!" I screamed into Jungkook's pillow. "NO NO NO NO NO!!" I sobbed as I kept repeating that word.

This was the hardest thing to do. I was reading about my dead best friend's last days, thinking about things I could have done to save him. I tried to regain my composure, but it took longer than I thought it would. When I finally did, I picked up the horrid black pocketbook and turned to the next entry on page sixteen.