Taehyung's POV
I pulled up to the cemetery, feeling my stomach twist and turn. I felt awful but it's been a year since I've been here. My therapist said it's alright if I visit but honestly, I'm not sure if she's right.
I don't know if I'm strong enough to visit.
But I want to visit him.
I parked my car and immediately leaned back against the headrest, taking in deep breaths. "I can do this, I can do this," I murmured to myself as I opened the car door, stepping into the morbid parking lot with a bouquet of flowers in my hand.
Even though I haven't been here in a year, I remember where his grave is.
How could I forget it and it's shiny black plate, that held my love but most importantly, my best friend?
I approached the spot where the gravestone was located and knelt down right in front of it. It looked the exact same way it did a year ago and I hope it stayed that way forever.
The stone read:
Jeon Jungkook
9/1/00 - 9/16/17
Took His Own Life
And Is Missed By All
Rest In Peace
My tears were hitting the grave as I cried. It hurt so much. To this day, it was still hard to believe he was gone.
I thought he was happy.
But he wasn't.
I was wrong.
The black pocket book that led me to my unanswered questions a year ago was in the pocket of my jacket. I pulled it out, holding it to my chest as my crying went from tears to big raindrops. I was able to calm myself down a bit after I had cried enough for my own liking.
"H-Hey Jungkook." I whispered to the grave, shutting my eyes to pretend he was here. To get the closure I needed to continue living my life, I had to say one thing to the grave, and leave.
"How are you doing?"
I opened my eyes and stood up, raft to leave. Before I went, there was another thing that needed to be said.
"I love you so much, Jeon Jungkook. I always will.
After I said that sentence, I silently walked back to my car, feeling a giant weight being lifted off my shoulder. I think I was now able to live on but still keep his memory with me.
One other thing I am keeping and will keep forever, is the item that helped me connect to Jungkook, even though he was not here in front of me.
His diary.
THE END
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His Diary || Taekook
Fiksi PenggemarDo you know what it feels like to lose someone important to you and not now how they died? That was what Kim Taehyung was going through. His best friend, Jeon Jungkook, has committed suicide and he doesn't know why. What happens when Taehyung goes t...
