His Diary || Taekook

Chapter 3

Taehyung's POV

8/31/17

Hello diary! Today started off okay, I guess. I went over to Taehyung's house to hang out after school and I had so much fun. He is a dumbass most of the time, but he is the only good thing in my life.

I couldn't help but laugh a bit at the dumbass part until I realized the last part he had written. What are the bad things in your life, Jungkook?

I wish my happiness could've lasted the whole night.

But it didn't.

Why, might you ask?

Because happiness never wants stays with me.

As soon as I got home, I got my usual beating by my dad for being "a fuck up."

What? No, that couldn't be true.

To most people, this is a completely awful and out of the ordinary thing. However, this was a normal part of life for me. He always does this. He punches me in the stomach and sometimes, when he's not being a coward, he'll punch my face.

That's why he had a black eye.

I should've know he was lying; all he told me was that he just ran into something.

His dad abused him.

And I didn't know.

Why didn't you tell anyone, Kookie? Where were your sisters and your mom when this happened? Or more importantly, where the hell was I at when he did this to you?

I felt my eyes tearing up, but I didn't let any tears fall. I knew that crying yet wouldn't do me any good and I had to keep on reading. This was the emotional price I had to pay for finding out the truth about my best friend's death.

I wonder why he beats me and only me. Why doesn't he beat Soojung and Soomi? Wait, hold on. That's not the right question to ask. Here's what the real question should be:

Why does everyone just watch?

Everytime he hits me, they are all there, standing still like porcelain dolls.

They do nothing to stop him.

All they do is cry cry cry, when they have no fucking right to be crying for me!

I shut the book, shaking with anger. He was getting abused by his father and all they did was watch him to it? How could they? This was the worst answer I could've received to any question on earth. I lied down on the floor, trying to calm myself down. If I was already struggling to read this, how in the world would I manage to read the rest? There had to be more pages in this thing and at the rate I was going, I wasn't going to be emotionally prepared at all.

But I would read it anyway.

I wanted to really know what my best friend was going through. I had to know what he was hiding behind glimmering smiles and transparent excuses.

I opened to book and turned to the seventh page, where Jungkook's entry continued.

Why don't they do anything?

Oh wait.

I know exactly why.

It's because they don't give a shit about me.

I'm just a person that lives in this stupid house with this stupid family.

Yeah, that's why.

The entry ended with these words and it left me with even more unanswered questions.

Why did his father abuse him? How could his sisters and mom watch him get beat like that?

And most of all,

How did I not know about this? Why didn't I figure it out and save him from this living hell?

I was absolutely terrified to read the next page, because it was written on an important date.

It was written on his birthday.

I did my best to ignore the sudden surge of emotions as I turned to the eighth page in Jungkook's diary.