His Diary || Taekook

Chapter 10

Taehyung's POV

9/7/17

DIARY

YOU WONT BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THIS

BUT TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY EVER

I WENT TO TAE'S HOUSE

TO MAKE THE ART PROJECT

AND IT WAS SO MUCH FUN

WE MADE THE SPHERE SHAPE FOR THE EARTH EASY

BUT WHEN WE STARTED TO PAINT IT

I THREW PAINT AT HIM AND WE HAD A PAINT FIGHT

I laughed, having flashbacks to that moment. It was so much fun. I wish I could go back to that moment and relive it over and over again.

IT WAS A BLAST

AND THEN WHEN WE FINISHED THE PROJECT

WE PLAYED VIDEO GAMES TOGETHER

IT WAS AMAZING

SURE MY DAD PUNCHED ME A LOT IN THE STOMACH WHEN I GOT HOME BUT I DONT GIVE ONE FLYING FUCK ABOUT THAT

IM IN LOVE WITH KIM TAEHYUNG

I don't even know what I'm feeling at the moment. Am I happy, sad, or angry? I know I'm regretful, that's for sure.

I WANT TO BARE HIS CHILDREN

WAIT THAT ISNT POSSIBLE

FUCK

EITHER WAY YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

I chuckled, thinking about how in the hell that would work if scientists ever discovered men could have babies. For a second, I imagined a world where Jungkook and I were happily living our lives together, with a dog and maybe a kid that we could have adopted. In this world, the smiley Jungkook was alive and well, still joking around with the goofy version of myself. I smiled at the thought, but remembered not to get my hopes up. I think I was still in a bit of denial that he was really gone.

IM IN LOVE

DIARY I NEED HELP

IM FUCKINg CRYING WITH HAPPINESS RN

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME

YOU KNOW WHAT DIARY I THINK I NEED SLEEP

PEACE OUT

This entry made me feel so many things at once.

I felt happy know that he loved me.

I felt sad because I never got to tell him I felt the same.

And I felt angry because I am a stupid idiot for not realizing we both had feelings for each other.

I also felt so emotionally drained but I needed to keep going. I wanted to get this emotional rollercoaster over with as soon as possible.

I turned to page eighteen in the pocketbook and kept reading.