please don't be mad at me
please don't yell at me
please don't judge me
please don't give me a speech
please understand me
i freaked out
i woke up i could not breath
i felt like ****
i was crying for an hour
before i noticed that i was
freaking out
i lost control
i forgot all hope
i forgot everyone
and all that was left
was my self hate
all balled up in every thing
i just hate myself
more then anything
and i cant expect a man
to understand me
or this
but i grabed a sharp object
and i cut my arms all up
it was deep
i got scared but i calmed down
at least im not dead right
i bleed then i remembered
all the important little things
like the one i love so dearly to my heart
yes i love you im sorry
i was so lost in my self pity
that it got to me in my dreams
and agin i lost conrol
and i cut my soul
i scared my skin
i created these ugly
gashes on my arm
just because
i pitied myself way too much
the hate i wear on myself
the hate i show
just so u know
im sorry
i painted my skin
with my own blood
in shame
im sorry
i just hope you wont be mad
and u just will understand
my purpose
just rember i love u
and im sorry once more
