Everyday I wake up faking a smile not just a smile but everything I'm faking hoping someone would be my hero and save me yet I push them away fearing I won't be seen as an equal again. I met new people from different age ranges who have been through what I have and even more worse than me yet here they are stronger than I am scars on their body yet it shows how strong they were but with me the scars on my body only shows how weak I am I'm just like and angel wanting to return to heaven yet it seems I'm not allowed to return to my home. With each passing day I start to lose more and more of myself the thoughts are killing me yet as I sleep I hope to never wake up for when I sleep I feel free no more pain or hurting sleeping is my only escape from the demons who comes and taunts me. I once met a boy who lost his mother to suicide when he saw my scars he told me I was an angel wishing to go back home just like his mom who had return home to heaven. Every night I sit alone in my room nothing but darkness and I finally let my tears fall overthinking about everything I did and now as I lay here feeling numb which I knew was worse than feeling sad but I can't do anything about it I knew I was losing myself once again and no one notice or they do notice but didn't care but it's fine no one does I already lost my friends and slowly losing people who have become important to me so leave me while you can before I become to attach but yet again I get attached too easily and that's how I get hurt.
