days without you

6

A/N - so I decided that I'm gonna throw in other POV besides Bellamys and Clarke's throughout the book. Hope you all don't mind. xxx

Octavia's POV
Before Praimfaya
The sound of distressed voices echoed throughout the bunker.

''I know that I had no idea what I was doing and I probably wasn't the best fit for this role but I know I had made the right decision even if it would be hard to live with. Clarke knew how hard this was. And so did Bellamy. Oh how I miss him. I miss him always looking out for me and being an annoying overprotective brother. Even if it had only been under 24 hours. I didn't know if he had made it up to the Ark. what would I do without him?'
As these thoughts race though my head I struggle to hold back a tear, failing as it rolls down my face.

I quickly brush the tear away as I hear a light knock on my door.

"Yes" I say standing up from my stop at the desk. I hold my self like I am someone of importance.

The door creeps open to reveal Kane.

"My I come in" he says still standing at his place outside my room.

"Yes come in"

"The people for the Ark are waiting up now" when I don't say anything he continues "I just wanted to inform you just incase there is any chaos"

I sigh and take my set at the desk, putting my elbows on the table and my head in my hands.

"Octavia are you okay?" Kane says and I look up at him will another tear falls down my check.

I have grow to see Kane as a somewhat father figure. He would always be there for me, even without myself knowing it.

"I-I'm sc-scared" I manage to say between my sobs. "Wha-what if I fail and this was a horrible decision. Clarke and Bellamy should be here and not out there possibly dead. She would know how to fix this." It becoming to hard to speak as I sob loudly.

Kane walks over to me and bends down so he is eye level with me.
"Hey hey it's okay. You are doing what you think is best for everyone. Your selfless. If I were in your position I would have only saved my people, and you could have done that but you decided to save all the clans, Bellamy would be so proud of you, look at the women you have grown into. Your not that scared little girl under the floor anymore are you?" He says, with a soft, caring smile.

"Thank you" I say as I pull him into a hug. He returns the hug before standing up, saying goodbye and leaving. I return to my thoughts.

'You can do this. For Bellamy'

Present time
I had somehow managed to lead the united 13 clans. Within the first year each clan would rarely interact with each other, other then when they were arguing over stupid things.
But after the first year, they all started to really unite. Each clan would help with jobs. Skaikru would teach others how to work the machines, and everyone almost seemed happy. Well as happy as you could be locked up in this bunker.

Everything changed about a year ago. Everything was going smoothly and it was 5 years after Praimfaya. It was the day we were finally going to see the sun again. We were going to be on the ground where we belong.

"Everyone quite" I yell over all of the commotion. "Today we will be returning home, we will be on the ground and even know we will be free again doesn't mean we can go back to killing each other." No one spoke, so I continued, "there may not be anything up there, everything that we know will be gone. It will be hard. There will be little food on the surface but I know we can all survive if we work together, united", cheers erupted from the crowd. I smile and turn to where the hatch is. I walk up the stairs and everyone goes quite, besides some random cheers here and there. I grab the handle and spin it around, before pushing the door open.

But nothing happened. I pushed again. The crowd started to get loud with worried questions.

"What's happening?"

"Are we trapped?"

"Push harder"

"What are we going to do now?"

I return to stand in front of the huddle people, "everyone settle down. We will figure something out but for now please go back to your rooms and wait for any announcements" they do as I say as stand there until they all leave.

Indra walks up besides me and puts her hand on my shoulder, "so what are you going to do now" she say as she looks into my eyes.

"I-I don't know"