I hate swimming because I'm constantly afraid someone will see my scars
But I love swimming because for those seconds you're underwater the world is silent, at the pool that my "grandma" (she isn't biologically my grandma but she is nicer to me than my real grandma) they have a huge in-ground pool and there is this built in ladder thing... so my favorite thing to do it drop down under the water and use the steps to push myself down to the bottom of the pool then I just stand on the bottom of the pool...
Silently
Alone
Without air
For as long as I can...
Sometimes it's hard to decide if I really want to let go of the step and float back up into the cruel, loud, unforgiving world.
