Tomorrow is my birthday, birthdays are fun right?
Wrong.
All of my family works tomorrow meaning I will wake up to an empty house with no one waking me up and telling me happy birthday. I don't have school meaning no one decorated my locker, it's such a little thing but when all of my friends came to choir with me today my heart dropped a little because I knew that meant no one was decorating my locker. It also means people won't post on social media about my birthday like they do for everyone else.
And another thing about my birthday is the fact that my dad probably won't even text me, I know he won't call me, and he definitely won't come see me, he hasn't for the last 5 years... why would he change that now.
As for my birthday party, I am having it the day after my actual birthday and I feel really bad because I couldn't invite my whole squad to it meaning I can't really bring up my birthday meaning it's been pushed to the background... for example my birthday is tomorrow and today I was invited to join two birthday chats for two of my other friends who both have birthdays in December... I bet they didn't even make one for me... why would they, I'm still the odd one out, the one that still doesn't quite fit, the one that would be kicked out if someone had to be.
So next time before you say "happy birthday" to me... realize that my birthday isn't really all that happy.
