Out Of My League (NOT COMPLETED)

Chapter 3: should I go?

As soon as I opened the door to my dorm I ran over to my bed and face planted it, I feel so stupid to have even fallen for this boy because I know what boys do, they mess around with your heart, this is the reason why I keep away from them. I sighed and turned on the TV before slipping into some comfy clothes and jumping into bed, all I need to do is ignore him and focus on my studies, that's the reason why I came here and I shouldn't let some silly little boys distract me.

My thoughts turned to what was outside the window, I looked up at the grey sky and watched as the raindrops raced each other down the window. My whole life has been leading up to this moment and I have already been distracted on the first day... But those eyes, they are like a pool of dark chocolate and the more I look at them the more they invite me in, his hair bounces on his head as he walks down the corridor, just like his personality, bouncy and cheerful. I just want to run my hand through his soft curls but I can't because he isn't mine. He never will be. Jasmine has more of a chance than me and to be honest I think she will become his girlfriend, I've seen the way they look at each other when I'm not around. I can't forget his little button nose that scrunches up every time he smiles or laughs and it's bugging me because no boy has ever had this affect on me before, I don't understand why I think he is attractive. As much as I tell myself he isn't he just proves me wrong, but today with Jasmine, he didn't even bother to help me. Instead he just sat and watched as she pushed me off of the chair and I landed on the floor, mixed signals is never a good sign, but then again there aren't really any signals. My brain is just tricking me into thinking he likes me when it's clear to see he doesn't, the boy doesn't even really know who I am and I barely know him!

I don't think you can even class someone as a friend if you have only known them for a few hours...

I heard the door opening which snapped me out of my thoughts and I looked away from the window to see Rachel walking in with the biggest smile on her face. "Hi!" She exclaimed and I gave her a little smile in return before burying my face into the duvet covers. "What's wrong with you?" She asked and took her shoes off before sitting on her bed. "Nothing." I mumbled and sighed. "Don't give me that, just because I have only known you for a day doesn't mean I don't know you. You are so easy to read. You're like an open book, what's happened?" She asked and crossed her legs. "I have been stupid." I said and she gave me a confused expression, I sat up on the bed and looked down at the duvet covers. "In my class there are 4 boys, the same 4 boys I embarrassed myself in front of in assembly yesterday. One of the boys is called Tristan and he decided to invite me to hang out with them during the lesson, so he introduced me to the other boys and we had a nice little chat, but for some reason one of the boys caught my eye and I've never experienced this before, normally I just ignore boys because they are trouble. But this boy has the most gorgeous brown eyes and the most adorable button nose, his hair sits in curls on the top of his head and bounces when he walks... His name is Brad and I think I am slowly starting to like him which is unusual for me. They invited me to sit in the canteen with them and I stupidly accepted their offer, not thinking about the consequences. Once we got there 4 girls walked over and started being very flirtatious around the boys. One of them started to run her hands through Brad's hair and he told her to stop, he looked at me and this girl called Jasmine walked over to me and basically told me to leave him alone because I am not good enough for him. She asked him if he liked me and he said no... That hurt a lot, but I'm not sure why because I've only known him for a few hours. Then she pushed me off of my chair and walked off, now I'm here... I feel so stupid." I explained and Rachel let out a little giggle.

"What?" I asked. "I think you have a crush, because you've never experienced what it feels like to be in love you have become blind to it." She said and I gave her a shocked look in return. "That is not possible, I do not fall for boys and I've only known him for a few hours!" I exclaimed with a panicked tone. "Calm down! It's fine, everyone eventually finds someone they like and its normal." Rachel explained. "But it's not normal to like one of the most popular boys in this place, he is never gonna like me back! I am literally a piece of dirt on the floor compared to him." I replied and she smiled. "You never know, miracles do happen. " Rachel said as she got a drink out of the fridge. "I don't even know if I like him... I've only known him a few hours, just because I find him the tiniest bit attractive doesn't mean I have any sort of feelings towards him." I said, trying to talk myself out of this mess. "Well that is something only you can decide on, nobody can tell you who you like." Rachel explained and then opened the orange juice carton before pouring some into a glass. "I can't like him anyway, Jasmine has got her eye on him and she seems to not like me very much." I replied. "I need to meet this Jasmine, she sounds like hard work." Rachel said. "Yeah, she is." I replied.